Tenten-san
I think it's exhausting due to the many worries and worries of each day visiting families on the brink of life. It's hard not being able to do anything at times like this, even with your family. I can only pray at times like this. But it means we can pray.
I think the sincere prayers of the family are many times more powerful than the prayers of the elai monk at the beautiful temple. Please have confidence in Tenten-san's own power of prayer.
However, we humans are unable to do what we want about people's lives. This is beyond human knowledge. The desire to “help” the family is also an ego and obsession. If it is necessary for Dad to still be in this world, his life on earth will continue. We don't understand that. So let's pray for the best things for your father's life. Let's pray with the feeling that no matter what the outcome is, it won't work.
I think prayer is not about hoping for things to happen the way you want them to go; it's about hoping for something to happen.
The fact that I saw Tenten's post is also something related to this. I will also do my best to pray for healing from my illness. Senryu