Regimental Decadance-sama
This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.
Previously, we have received similar questions such as the one below, and I have answered them as well. Also, I think you can refer to everyone's answers.
Question “The meaning of living”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/93
As I stated in my humble answer, “meaning, meaning, and purpose are not “present” or “not at all” as an entity, but are made up of various “relationships.”
I've mentioned something a little difficult here, but I think it's really important how each one grasps this “relationship.”
I think Decadence of Regimental can also look back on your own life, which has been made up of various relationships up until now, so that you can think about the many relationships you have, notice who you are now, and find even a small “reason why you are living now” even from having gratitude and reward for those relationships.
By all means, I would be happy if this was an opportunity for you to take this opportunity to think again about the state of this world formed by “relationships.”
Also, as a related matter, we have answered the following questions.
Question “What do humans live for?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/36
As I mentioned in my humble answer, I have captured the reason and meaning of living as an idiot monk in this way, saying, “I hope you can make as much effort as possible in this world, and be born in a situation where you can practice wisdom and practice good deeds again,” while exaggerating.
Towards enlightenment and nirvana, I think it's step by step while making great reflection every day so that we can somehow continue to encounter a definite Buddhist relationship.
Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho