Sec
This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.
Dear SEC, I remember that your question was asked about 3 months ago. It seems that your feelings haven't recovered easily since then, and I'm really worried.
The question “Do you have pain when you're too happy?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/87
At this time, I only mentioned very small and difficult things as an “approach to “unrequited hardship,” and now I'm reflecting on it...
I actually had a bad time in the past when I fell into a state of mind similar to SEC... at that time, only nihilistic things and pessimistic things took precedence and crossed my mind, and I think it was a period of negative thinking anyway.
I want you to laugh at it, but I've also made arguments called “no return argument” and “intermediate nihilism” out of nihilism and pessimism. It's still on the internet (laughs)
http://www.hide.vc/tokusen4.html
When I think about it now, I'm really immature, but even with this, I look back on those days, saying that they were seriously discussing this kind of thing for the time being...
However, I was continuing to learn Buddhism even though I was a fool like this, and I understood that this state would not last forever or forever, because as an entity, it was impossible for such a state to continue for a long time, so I continued to struggle to continue making sincere efforts to be as positive, positive, and as possible without thinking that it is useless now...
If we do that, eventually, we have gone through various good “relationships” while doing so, and I have somehow relied on those good “relationships,” and I think we are now able to get out of our nihilistic and pessimistic way of thinking.
The “edge” will always come and go. Of course, there are not only good relationships, but also bad relationships, but I think that an attitude of daily efforts is essential to make use of good relationships and reject bad relationships. In order to make the most of a good relationship, good relationships will surely come, and if you seize that good relationship, I recommend that you build up as much effort as possible in your daily life while being positive and aware of positive thoughts.
I pray that you will continue to be blessed with good relationships.
Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho