I want to acknowledge that I'm not accepted by everyone. I want to be recognized.

I'm also the type that people don't understand. When I was studying Zen studies at university, I joined a seminar on “Buddhism in Sake, Culture, and Performing Arts.” The person who seemed so serious when he heard that said it was disgusting. “This is the birth of an excellent smelly boy.”
But I didn't care. He is an excellent person who is responsible for leaving Buddhism.

The name of our cicada is unusual, but the content deals with a wide range of “Buddhism,” from the teramachi and culture surrounding the temple, and we learn “Buddhism” from when they were well. From there, it is about searching for hints to revive 20th century Buddhism, which caused the biggest departure from Buddhism in Japanese history. It's very serious. While saying that, the actual first goal is training to read Buddhist Chinese without a dictionary.
Why is alcohol involved? A seminar professor unearthed sake sutras written in style by cultural figures from Edo from the library. It's just a training to read it while having fun, and also read aggressive Chinese sentences that aren't sharp, like college entrance exams.

That person thought it was “a seminar researching excuses for monks to drink alcohol” just by name. stupid?
The essential art of zazen meditation is to leave thought and discernment. However, people who wield discretion with only their names and even force them on others are fundamentally mistaken about Zen. Such a person is simply bald, wearing foil during zazen meditation.
Fake Buddhism spreads throughout the world because such people are orthodox and disseminate values. People misunderstand religion as bad. It will become a society where the media is OK to tell lies, and complaints are rampant. What an excellent smelly boy.

The reason I've made it this far is because I have a vision for the future. What is correct Buddhism? What is the correct “Buddhism”? Toward that point, I will destroy the preconceived concept of Shaba, which has become fuzzy. To that end, I'm still studying, and I'm continuing to aim for a variety of drawers like the 33 incarnations of the Bodhisattva. That's my belief.
I'm also going to use him as one convenient thing.

Facing only oneself without worrying about other people's eyes is a very wise and precious act. But on the other hand, don't run away from the question of whether this is really the right effort. The latest top athletes are also saying it with all their mouths
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Stopping the current instrument is one option, but if you continue, try searching for various routes, such as measures to promote the appeal of that genre yourself. It's not just about practicing in the dark clouds, it's not just about effort

Hello, Sui-san.

It's not easy for your music to be recognized by others, so you're being humble. It's the same problem that many people want to have, and you can only have one marriage partner. The first thing you need is someone who can understand your music. It allows you to live a strong life. Music is an expression of my thoughts. It doesn't matter if everyone approves it or not. Don't you have any friends who understand Sui's music? What about my boyfriend? I don't think that's the case. Let's make music for that person who can understand Sui-san's music. And let's make and play music that will make that person happy. Then, if that music is popular, it will spread. You won't be cowardly.
And if there isn't one of them, let's ask the Buddha to approve it. That's how I lived without friends. The Buddha sincerely acknowledges my efforts and is delighted. If you have faith, you will be able to communicate with the Buddha through sutras. Even if society doesn't recognize you even though you've worked hard, the Buddha will approve it. Let's play for the Buddha. That's enough. I don't have time to worry about other people's evaluations.

Please start playing music. Please play it as a Buddha song. And let me hear it. I'm a music setback group, so I love musicians who can express their own songs (laughs)

Good luck! If you have trouble at any time, please feel free to contact us by phone or email. Gassho

I'm sure you'll touch and play your own instrument
I think they'll have fun and be happy.
Right now, I'm worried about a lot of things, and my eyes are over there
Maybe.
“I used to have excellent grades in college, and ever since I was little
I was praised by everyone for being good at music”
I think there is no doubt that they are capable enough.
Rather than practice, I'm playing an instrument
It's fun and it can't be helped, it's funny and interesting...
and once again immerse yourself in the world of your own music
I think I'll be able to see something.
I don't know much about music or art.
I'm sure there are times when practice is tough and painful,
Basically, at the root, there is something fun and happy
I think there are things that make me happy.
I think it would be nice if I could go back there once.

Everyone has a desire to be recognized by those around them.
The factor of being recognized by everyone also allows you to feel your own worth, and it becomes rewarding.
Certainly, there are parts in music that are conspicuous and glamorous, and parts that are plain and unobtrusive.

Sui feels inferior to ornate instruments, and she is worried that they are minor instruments anyway...
However, in reality, each has its own personality, and the person most thought of as having appeal in every part is probably Sui herself.

You also have the option of switching to a flamboyant instrument.
So why isn't that the case?
Isn't that because you're fascinated by the instruments you handle?
In the end, it was Sui's own decision to choose that instrument.
Isn't that the instrument that best suits your skin?
This is called a “relationship.”
The fact that you think your relationship with an instrument you have a “relationship with” is inconspicuous or makes you feel an inferiority complex also makes me feel that something is hurting yourself or your instrument.

I've experienced a lot of bad things, and that's why I'm picking up instruments that I once stopped picking up again this spring is probably because I really like music.
Just because it isn't appreciated doesn't mean it's being denied.
Sui-san has created “strengths and weaknesses that don't originally exist” herself, saying that glamorous ones are better.
Since they have been making efforts since they were little, there is a good chance that there are people who listen to it who feel wonderful.
In particular, if there are people in the audience who play the same instrument, they are probably paying attention.

Please do the best you can right now.
If you love music, just focus on what's in front of you and keep going.