About drinking alcohol
I'm struggling with my desire to drink alcohol.
I began researching Buddhism after the death of a relative, and I learned that one of the Five Commandments is a commandment not to drink alcohol.
When I looked it up on the internet, they said, “'Not drinking alcohol does not admonish drinking alcohol itself. It admonishes people to be corrupted by alcohol and commit misdeeds, so some is fine”
“Acts that cause drunkenness to people, such as drinking alcohol, greatly interfere with the core of Buddhism.”
There was that.
I became uneasy, and for the past six months, I avoided drinking at drinking parties, and did not use mirin or sake when cooking, or boiled to remove alcohol.
Everyone is drinking, and I have excuses such as saying that if it's a little bit, it may benefit me. I also thought it would be nice if people who didn't know about the ban on drinking alcohol would be allowed to drink it.
Even when we have drinking parties, I always drink but I don't drink, so I wonder what others think.
The reason I'm writing this here is probably because I want people to say “it's okay to drink.”
My head is a mess of feelings of guilt and worry and all sorts of thoughts.
Please tell me what monks think about drinking alcohol.
