anxiety about the future

I'm a boy, so I've come to think I have to study something as a monk. Therefore, we are doing detailed research on Japanese Americans in Canada who have immigrated from Shiga Prefecture.

There's certainly nothing wrong with borrowing money called scholarships, but isn't it a drive (motivation) to work if you don't pay it back? Also, in North America, it is commonplace to take out your own education loan and repay it when you graduate from university, so it can also be said that you are an “international standard.” Why don't you think that's the case?

I'm worried about whether I'll be able to do the job, but I think the place of business hired you because they think you can do it. Businesses are serious about securing good human resources, and they objectively evaluate that you have that ability. You don't think so from your own personal subjectivity, do you? Why don't you trust an objective evaluation on the business side? Also, even when it comes to jobs, there are those that focus on interpersonal relationships, and there must also be occupations where that does not account for a large proportion. If it's not a job where interpersonal relationships are everything, I think it's better not to worry too much about it.

You said you're not good at English, but since you've passed the exam to enter graduate school, I think getting used to speaking will solve the problem. Of course, people who emigrated to Canada from around the middle of the Meiji period did not receive English education at all. People who wanted to learn English either lived in white families and went to school while doing miscellaneous work, or went to an English night school at a Japanese Christian church to study. Of course, daytime work is not desk work, but 10 hours of manual labor a day. I whipped up my exhausted body and studied at night at school. Even when I studied like that, due to racial discrimination, there was legal occupational discrimination, and everyone had a very hard time.

While researching these people, I always think I'm blessed.

1. I have a debt of about 5 million in scholarships. can I return it? That's anxiety.
→Our temple has more debt than that.
If you don't mind, why don't you just return it and pay a small fee? ('◇')
Anxiety only becomes uneasy when you think about it. If it's a ladder or a staircase, I don't like it because I look back and forth. If you walk step by step only where you're climbing, it's over before you know it.

2. I have social anxiety disorder, and I'm afraid of getting involved with others. I'm worried that even if I work, I'll get sick right away, and I won't be able to continue my work.
→Never define yourself by doing that.
Don't forget the label with the name of the disease or something.
That kind of thing is a word created by doctors to make money anyway, and it makes me feel so strong that I won't be fooled. You've probably forgotten the chair or foot you were sitting on right now.
You'll forget even a part of your own body, so don't be fooled by someone else's label.
That's because it really makes me want to get away with that kind of suggestion.
What is the essence of human relationships, in simple terms, isn't it just talking and listening? I think it's difficult, so it's a bit complicated ~ ♪.

3. I don't have confidence in myself and I don't have any abilities, so I feel like I'm going to end up in the company's luggage. I'm also worried that I won't be able to continue working.
4. I need English proficiency at the company I'm joining, but I'm not good at English.
→Are you currently working while reading this?
Right now, I'm just thinking about it.
Right now, it's still nothing in your luggage or anything.
Rather, having a way of thinking that reality hasn't begun and that kind of twirling around after it's over is a life based on thoughts that aren't living in reality.
That is the parent ball that makes you live that way the most.
A gastroscope isn't drunk by the stomach until you get it in your mouth and drink it, so even if you say it now, even before you drink it, now isn't that time in reality, is it?
“Oh, this is an idea. If you see through the fact that “it's not real,” you can overcome your own anxiety and regrets.

The title is kind of a play on words, but do you know the answer?
Hi, that's right, it starts now. To put it simply, it starts 1 second later. In other words, what the future holds depends on the present. Do you do the act of thinking “this is anxiety, that is anxiety” and continuing to think after 1 second or 2 seconds...? Or, for example, if you're uneasy about English now, do you pick up some teaching materials 1 second later? “What are you going to do in the next second?” The accumulation of is the future itself, and it is directing the future even further ahead.
When you're worried about “Oh, I have to write my master's thesis,” you probably won't be able to write even one letter. However, if you choose “open the computer lid” instead of that option, you will be on your way to completion. It's the same as that, right?

It doesn't have to go well.
You don't have to be great.
Buddhism teaches us that all lives are equally precious.
Whether you fail or succeed, there is a Buddha who will accept you as it is.