I'm afraid of loneliness and I'm going to live

Don't worry, the Buddha will accept you.
Also, the universe is changing rapidly, and everything can disappear in an instant.
But you're still alive.
You are necessary for the balance of the universe, so you haven't disappeared even now.
It's not that you have a mission; the very fact that you exist now is necessary for the universe. The universe isn't rejecting you either.
When humans are born, only one sperm that has won out of hundreds of millions of spermatozoa can become a fertilized egg, and all humans are winners who have won a tougher competition than winning gold medals at the Olympics when they are born, and they have rare value.
In Japanese society, you are recognized with the right to live as you are, and the country and society are not rejecting you.
However, you can't accept yourself on your own.
The reason I can't accept myself is probably because I have worries (pride, greed, jealousy, etc.).
Delusions due to worry (thinking about things you don't need to think about, and you waste time over and over again) Probably because there is.
Being delusional and feeling bad is exhausting, isn't it?
First, be aware that your own worries and delusions are increasing your suffering a lot.
Next, praise them for their strengths and what they can do. There are blind people in the world, but for example, you may have the ability to replace such people's walking sticks.
Next, it might be a good idea to try your hand at romance. Finding just one person who recognizes you should lead to confidence.
Finally, try doing something for others and your family. If you can help someone even in small things, it will lead to confidence and energy.
Note that you can change your appearance and the impression you give to people quite a bit, so if you're careless, please take a little care.
There's a difference between the actors' exercises to improve their fluency, or just slightly raising (brightening) the tone of voice. It's interesting to listen to my own voice with the mobile phone's recording function

Thank you sakumak3 for your question.

You mean you avoid relationships because of your own weaknesses and are lonely.

The feeling of wanting to be seen well and the feeling of wanting to be recognized by others.
Every human being has that kind of feeling, and that feeling is also an energy source.
However, on the other hand, the reality that it is not often seen or recognized by people
It's something.

This feeling is probably greed and distress.
Why don't you take a step back from there?

Accept yourself just the way you are, and don't force yourself to do your best.
Accept things naturally.

When it comes to being able to do all of this perfectly, it might not be possible.
(Impossible means there's no reason.
There's nothing you can do about things that don't make sense.)

One step with something
If you could pull it out, wouldn't that be fine?

If you can do that, praise yourself.

They probably don't like the feeling of being treated harshly or looked down upon in relationships with others.
It's not something the other person does that makes you think so.
You undervalue yourself and bully yourself.
Low self-esteem, low self-esteem, inability to love oneself, interpersonal phobia...
The essence of this is an assumption or obsession, similar to a kind of garbage, where you think you are something unobtrusive and treat yourself lowly.
I and the world aren't treating you harshly.
You're choosing to treat yourself poorly.
Maybe they're trying to get people's attention in that way.
This can also be said to be a bad statement against myself.
You don't have to do that.
Rather than that, your life is only one life in the world and the universe, so try putting your hand on your chest and breathing right now.
This isn't what you're doing.
What you think you are is your sense of self.
Your sense of self is different from your body's knowledge of meaning. Until now, I've probably made my ego the main character. That's why comparisons and suffering are born.
From now on, please live your life as the true protagonist, listen day and night, and live your life in a way that is full of life.
There are probably a lot of people in this world who just want to be stingy when they see an article on TV or the internet or someone else's post.
That same mentality has been directed at myself.
Don't speak ill of yourself, your partner, or the world.
Actually, you may feel that your problem is interpersonal phobia, but it is bad talk, bad opinion, and bad talk about yourself and your partner.
Please try to face what I mean. Your life will change.
From now on, try living a way of life without backlash, no comments, and no stinginess.
You'll be able to interact with anyone.

　I don't understand you just because of this question. I haven't seen faces, there are no typographical errors or omissions in the sentences, the beginning and end of life have been completed, and there is no introduction to upbringing, so I can't make a judgment.
Yes. Please come and see me once. Eagles don't look good, so when I was a student, we had a joint party and a losing streak in love. I went to college after 2 waves, and since I can't make a living at a temple, I work part-time. He is a venerable monk.
Such an eagle's goal is to become a villain. We support the Jodo Shinshu sect's “villain sanity theory.” Even though he's a Zen sect... he's the worst Zen monk. The point is not that I don't accept myself. People around me don't look at me or evaluate me.
Monks provide a place to accept any kind of person. If you don't want to meet eagles, try attending a nearby sanzen-kai, sermon church, shakyo-kai, etc.
If you have any other questions, please feel free to contact hasunoha. More specifically, where would you like to go? What would you like to do? Please consider things like that before posting. I'd also like to hear about recent developments.