I want to snuggle up to my dead daughter.

Minori. What words are good to use...
He really gathered up his courage and wrote about the painful things very well.
I think it would be quite difficult to accept the situation.

However, my daughter will lose her body due to death, but that doesn't mean everything will go away.

In the Shingon sect to which I belong I have inherited
Funerals are held close to those who have died.
Whether it's suicide, an accident, or a disaster, there's no such thing as not being able to attain Buddhism because of it.

Every day from the first 7th to the 49th, the Seven Buddhas take their place and come here to save those who have lost their place.
After that, a total of 13 Buddha statues will save you: 100 days later, 1 year (1st anniversary), 2 years (3rd anniversary), 6 years (7th tabernacle), 12 years later (13 times tabernacle), and 32 years later (33 times tabernacle).

32 years... it's been a long time... Please keep up the good work and live a long time.

It might be a good idea to make a pilgrimage to these 13 Buddhas.

If you look up the 13 Buddha Sacred Sites in various places, I think they will come up.

Also, if you have a chance, it might be a good idea to make a pilgrimage to 88 places in Shikoku.

Among the pilgrims, I think there are many people like Minori who lost their children at a young age.

These days may be too sad and painful for Minori to express in words... No, maybe they are rather unrealistic days.
If reality is difficult to accept, I think you don't have to overdo it to accept it right away.

While taking care of your life,
When you have time, please visit a temple or sacred place.
I think I can always feel that my daughter and heart are always connected even when there is no appearance.

I don't know what to say. I also have a daughter who is in high school, and I can't even imagine it.

Now, those who commit suicide are unable to attain Buddhism, etc. are probably influenced by Catholics and said so, but they don't say that in Buddhism. People who tried to commit suicide also came to the Buddha's disciples, but the Buddha didn't say anything special. However, since then, it was simply prohibited to do so in cases where others were induced to commit suicide. So don't worry.

By the way, our Jodo Shinshu Honganji school (Nishi Honganji) has an organization that tackles the issue of suicide suicide in neighboring Kyoto and continues to talk with the bereaved families. Please feel free to contact us via email or phone.
http://www.kyoto-jsc.jp/

Minori-sama
Nice to meet you, my name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.

Recently, it is said that a young lady passed away suddenly. Moreover, it was not possible to confirm the body, and I think they spent difficult days without a sense of reality. My heart aches for me when I think about how much Minori and her family are in the midst of unimaginable grief.

The young lady had a pet she loved, promised to lend a book to her friend, and even made a reservation to record an anime she loved. Why did the young lady, who was kind to people and didn't even hit insects or mosquitoes, make her own decisions? No one knows, but the inside of Minori's mind and her family is “why?” I think it's swirling round and round.

An important and important person has passed away. I think everyone in the family is going to have really hard days from now on. What we can do is limited, but the first thing I want to say is that “if you commit suicide, you cannot attain Buddhism” or “people who commit suicide suffer in the afterlife” are complete superstitions.

There may be people who say things that make bereaved families even more sad and distressed, but I affirm that we monks are different, so please don't worry about that. I know that the young lady puts her hands together to watch over the family she left behind from a world without worries and suffering, saying “I'm sorry for making you sad, sorry for making you feel so hard.”

There are meetings about suicide involving monks in various places.
The days haven't passed yet, so I don't think that's enough, but let me just let you know.

Association of Monks Facing Suicide and Suicide
http://www.bouzsanga.org

Association of Kansai Monks Facing Suicide
http://www.inochinohi-kansai.com

Meeting of religious shrines facing life (Nagoya)
http://inochi.in

I'm afraid it's a private matter, but my former ascetic buddies have gone down the same path. It's been 4 years already... For monks, ascetic companions are like comrades in arms. They slept side by side in a space with no private fragments, ate food from the same kettle, took a bath together, were punished for joint responsibility every day, and were scolded minute by minute for destroying their ego. When it's time for zazen, if you sit properly, you won't get angry, so when it's time for zazen, all of my classmates burst into tears and rejoice.

Then, when I was reunited with my friends who shared their hardships, it was a portrait and an urn. That's because the funeral was cremated prior to the funeral. Four years have passed, and I visited graves several times, so I know he died. I know, but something like this just doesn't seem like it...

He left a suicide note long enough to fit in one book, and it seems that he had LASIK surgery the day before he actually took action. I had no intention of dying at all... It is often said that suicide is an impulse, and I'm sure that is the case. There was a suicide note where I could feel a firm will for that path, but even so, I can't explain everything unless I think of it as an impulse.

That's why I read Minori's sentences and felt they were the same... I'm sure when you left home, you didn't have the idea to choose that path at all. The days will pass from now on, and as loneliness increases, I think various thoughts will cross my mind. I would be grateful if you could remember it at that time, but “it's not Minori's fault.”

Finally, as for the future, let's cherish life as long as Minori has tenjū-sama. Breaking down the personal barriers I am and I am, and carefully “making offerings” for a big, big life connection is being close to the young lady, and it is Minori's own salvation for the young lady.

If you don't know what to do, please feel free to contact us again.

I was young.
I guess it was because I was young that I couldn't find any other options.
I pray for your peace of mind.
It's not my mom's fault.
The young lady around that age is very sensitive, so there must have been something that hurt her.
However, as a mother, my heart is for each other, but please let my daughter pass away once so that I can really leave her alone.
For the mother, it's my child who has been feeling sorry for her stomach, so it's the same heart and soul. I have a very strong feeling for the young lady, and I think they have become one perfectly, so much so that they can't peel off.
But even so, please dare to acknowledge the dignity of the young lady for 17 years.
The young lady was already independent from her mother and acted properly with her own thoughts, judgments, and choices.
It seems cruel, but no matter who the young lady is, everyone
“Mom, I'm me, not your mom.” It's probably going to say that.
This is the true form of the existence of each individual human being.
Please acknowledge your daughter's dignity and put your hands together.
On top of that, please start a new relationship with your daughter as if she were snuggling up to her.
The relationship continues.
As the mother gets older, her feelings for her daughter change year by year.
Please speak softly to them in your heart when they are reminded of you.
The young lady has passed away, but the mother can call out to the young lady. Please offer things you liked to the Buddhist altar from time to time and tell them about your son. By acknowledging your dignity, one day the young lady in your heart will smile.
You will also be able to talk.
Please let them think about it. Please scold them from time to time. Please tell her about your mother's worries from time to time. By doing so, you will be convinced that they will continue to live together as beings who lead the mother to the Buddha's heart.