Sakura-sama
This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.
It is said that they have attempted suicide twice... it is really painful...
I sincerely pray that there will not be a third time, that your worries and suffering will be relieved and healed to the extent that you may plan to commit suicide.
Regarding suicide, we have answered the following questions until now.
“About Suicide and Suicide”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_319870.html
“... When it comes to going after death, what has the greatest impact is one's own actions (karma) above all else. If that karma weighs heavily on bad karma due to distress or ignorance (fundamental ignorance), then after all, you will think that karma (future ahead, reincarnation) is bound to be severe. ・・”
“It was written that unscrupulous politicians, unscrupulous traders, and criminals (especially murderers) will go to hell.” ... There are times when the moral standards of the world and the Buddhist standard of right and wrong in causal retaliation do not match, but I understand that there is not much difference in terms of recommending good and punishment of evil.
However, even if you do a bad act, you will be able to sincerely be ashamed and repent, work hard to do good deeds, and go to a better place after death depending on the causal relationship (cause and condition) of good karma.
“I often hear that people who commit suicide also go to hell.” ... I think it will be on a case by case basis whether or not it becomes bad karma just because you commit suicide. One thing I can say is that if it is suicide due to ignorance (fundamental ignorance) or worry, it will still be bad karma, so I think it is necessary to be careful enough.
Next, regarding cases of suicide attempts and attempts, please refer to the following question for details on issues of conduct and motivation.
Question “What is heartfelt action? ”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/1005257984.html
Anyway, depending on a good cause and effect in the future, we can always hope for good results. I would like you to stop thinking about suicide.
Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho