What is a monk's affliction?

I read it.
Monks, or monks, are also people, so they are no different from ordinary people.
I live in the midst of greed, anger, desire, obsession, and daily hesitation, which are afflictions just like you.
Naturally, the three major desires also come to a boil.
So when it comes to me, I'm worried.
In Buddhism, what you think with your heart is also a sin.
Therefore, every day I commit various crimes due to that affliction.
For example, foolish fantasies such as “Oh, today is bothersome, I don't want to do it, I want to be lazy, I want that, I want this, I want to eat that, I think about that guy, why do I run into this situation...” etc.
Therefore, I face the Buddha every morning at work, and sincerely repent to the Buddha for the sins I have committed and felt in my heart. The Buddha listens to everything and accepts it. I'm also thinking of changing my mind and making an effort to throw away such bad thoughts. However, there are times when it's hard for me to get away from my worries.

The Buddha accepts and saves all of us such fools. And they will guide you in the right direction.

If you are tormented by worries and your mind is greatly lost, please put your hands on the Buddha from the bottom of your heart and speak in your heart, and repent. The Buddha has listened attentively to everything. And he will guide you correctly.

I pray to the Buddha that you will be able to clear your mind for the rest of your life, leave your doubts, and feel at ease.

It's hot... I want to wear light clothes... (full coat of law & 5 layers of underwear shirts)
There's nothing you can do about it. It's just familiar.

appending
I'm sorry for ruining my dream.

But that's not how it should be. From around the last quarter of the 20th century, this country said, “There are no worries about monks. Salaried workers are ideal corporate warriors. A married couple is the perfect form of romance.” We have glorified society with such dreams and hopes. So I gathered faith, and I didn't doubt it because I believed that my father was respected, I built a happy family with gender equality, and that if I worked hard, I would be rewarded for my hard work.

However, the reality of the results was the largest separation from Buddhism in Japanese history, a society where young new graduates quit their jobs after 3 months, 1 in 3 people experienced divorce, and the harder they worked, the sicker they worked. My dreams and hopes in the past were nothing but Paris syndrome.

Your image of a monk is wrong. It's not a monk's ascetic practice, but the thirteenth Ishigoemon or something like that. It's training in anime and dramas. Master Kunimoto said what affliction is, and that is true. The monks back then didn't even explain to Matomo what affliction was. (I myself didn't feel like writing too hard in this answer, so I went through it and got on...)
It's not your delusion. It is a social disease spread by adults in the old days due to total social mobilization. Such a delusional society will be destroyed, and no one will benefit unless we rebuild a society where values attached to the ground are commonplace for people as life-size people.

I'm sorry for ruining my dream. And I'm sorry I made you have bad dreams.
We are now at a turning point in many aspects of society. Let's create a new era together.

I want to eat something sweet → let's just keep it a little bit.
I want to drink beer → let's have a highball.
This is how to deal with it.

But I'm not worried. You are free to think about anything, and of course.
Also, treating them as “don't think like this” you have to get rid of this kind of feeling” is annoying.
Even if you think about it, just the way you think. I'm not going to deal with them. Doing things like “let's not think about it” is an unnecessary annoyance.
When a girl is walking, it's natural to think “cute” or “beautiful.” Everyone has it (^-^)

I don't want to get sick,
I don't want to grow old,
I don't want to die.
I want to be with someone I like,
I don't want to meet people I don't like,
I want to get whatever I want,
I don't want to be in trouble,
I just want to do what I love.

Broadly speaking, there are 10 types of worries.
It seems that worries gradually disappear according to the stage of enlightenment.
I'm far from the first stage of enlightenment, so all my worries are a big success, though.
There are 4 stages of enlightenment, and it seems that there are still 5 afflictions left for saints who have attained up to 3 stages of enlightenment.
Once you reach the last 4 levels, there will be no more than 5 left, and it seems that you can overcome all your worries just like a Buddha.
So, one of the worries that remains until the end is an affliction called “arrogance.”
Simply put, it's an affliction of pride.
So, even if he's a pretty amazing monk who has lost his greed or anger, his worries of pride will remain until the end.
Somewhere in their heart, they worry about their own worth, think they are great, and conversely, they despise themselves if they are bad.

Nayu-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

The monk's anguish..

Even if you're a monk, it's normal for people to want to do that, want this, and want that.

Yes, but it changes depending on who it is for and what purpose.

If you are a monk, it is ideal not for yourself, but for getting rid of other hesitation and suffering, so that everyone can reach enlightenment and be at ease.

That said, I'm not completely denying it even for myself. Even if it is for yourself to reach enlightenment, if it is something that will eventually benefit everyone, it will be greatly appreciated.

Even if various afflictions come up, such as wanting to do that, wanting that, anger, hatred, and jealousy, etc., I want to try to eliminate unnecessary desires and worries as much as possible by calmly evaluating them, such as whether they are just selfish, self-righteous, or complacent, and whether those desires and afflictions are necessary for everyone to reach enlightenment. (In esoteric Buddhism, worries are sometimes used as power to move towards enlightenment, so there is no point in denying all afflictions just because they are uniformly Buddhist.)

As long as we are human, greed and worry are natural even for monks, but I want to judge the criteria for sifting through them based on Buddhist monks as much as possible and adjust them so that we can walk the middle path.

By all means, I would be grateful if you were even more interested in Buddhism.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho