Can't anyone help me
I had a discussion about my son who had gone far away a long time ago. That made me mentally crazy. Every day is painful and it's like hell, hurting myself and crying... But I also have a younger daughter, and I'm barely doing work and housework due to the economy.
However, it was so painful that I went to psychosomatic medicine and received medicine. Also, I tried relying on various places as much as I could think of, such as telephone consultations and consultations with friends and mother-in-law. However, more than a year went by in pain. That's the limit.
My husband is assigned alone and comes back once a week, and at first he listens to me, but recently he says, “I don't know you anymore. do whatever you want. I was told, “I'm worried about my daughter, so I'm coming home, but I can't take care of you.” I can also say things to my husband that I can't discuss in detail with my friends or parents, so I understand that they are stunned after talking about so many things. However, I think couples are the only ones who can support each other during difficult times. I've even been abandoned by someone like that, and I'm at my limit. It's really hard to suffer alone. I would like to die like this, but when I think about children, I can't do that either.
My husband is a kind person, but he is abandoned by such people and has an indescribable sense of loneliness and emptiness. My husband tells me to find my own hobbies and do something about it, but now that's difficult, and when I watch my husband throw them away in that way, I wonder what a married couple is.
I understand that in the end, I have no choice but to do something on my own, but now that it's painful and I can't afford it, would it be foolish to want someone to support me? Now that even my husband, who really should have helped each other more than anyone else, has abandoned me, I am alone in the world, I feel alone and lonely, and it's even more painful. Do humans still live alone? Up until now, I've managed to resolve things on my own for 40 years, but this time I don't seem to be able to recover on my own, probably because of mental damage. I think we've discussed everything we can rely on. I am consulting with a feeling that this is the only place left. Do people eventually have no choice but to live alone, even if they are married? Is it indecent to want someone to help you?