I want to be nothing

I think meditation training is very good. but

it has to be like this!!
As long as I think and work on it, I probably won't be able to do it until I die...

For now, stop chasing raging monkeys and horses.

It's impossible to stop your brain from moving as long as you're alive. Zazen in the Soto sect teaches us not to stick to what comes to mind, but to pass it on. I recommend attending a zazen session.

Ruru-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

It may be that the entity called “nothing” is being captured as if there is something.

In terms of Buddhism, both “having” and “not being” are denied as entities, as “no presence or absence.”

Well, if I had to say that there isn't anything, that's not the case; certainly, both Shusei and Ruru-sama exist like this now.

However, it certainly exists, but its state of affairs is not as an entity, it depends on others, and simply exists based on various causal relationships (causes and conditions), and even if any of those elements are analyzed in detail, there is no such thing as “this is me.”

In summary, it means “everything is auspicious and empty.”

Well, putting the difficult arguments aside, Buddhism does not aim for “nothing,” but rather aims for “enlightenment.”

Meditation, such as meditation and zazen, is one of them for how to adjust the “mind” and “words and actions” in order to reach “enlightenment.”

I would like to recommend that you carefully observe your current state of “mind” in light of Buddhism, and then meditate or zazen while thinking about Buddhism about how you should move towards enlightenment by practicing Buddhism, not “don't think about anything” or “just calm your mind,” but if possible, what you should do to achieve enlightenment.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

You're probably “setting up” the word “nothing” right now.
To stand up for nothing is to aim. It's about assuming nothing and trying to move towards the nothlessness that you have anticipated.
If you think about it carefully and calmly, it is “something aimed at nothing.”
The action is there.
I thought of the logic of nothing.
So, rather, the exact opposite of nothing “happens when you aim for nothing.”
Nothing is not empty.
There is no active effort.
“Nothing” because artificial action disappears from within the brain.
I'm in a state where I just lost consciousness.
If you compare your thoughts to comments on SNS or Nico Nico videos, there are no comments at all.
A stance that doesn't touch on the facts.
There are no active (active) movements or actions in response to what we are currently experiencing here. It's like a person with a super calm personality and moral character became the director.
Any fuss is in the hands of Buddha.
I have a quiet heart because nothing to do or do happens.
As Master Kawaguchi also said, technical nothiness and artificial nothlessness are actually fictitious. I can't help but be proud.
Mindfulness, which is done in chimata, is only a way to make up for selfishness because it is done as an extension of the ego. Nothing is the same thing.
I think it is important why there is a need to become nothing.
Even if you learn the essence of Zen at a zazen session, using it for your self is like using Einstein's inventions as weapons to fight wars and kill people.
No matter how much it comes to naught, what the Buddha and his master say nothing is nothing is simply a realization of nothiness with an address called Obi.
I think it's important to at least master nothfulness as a law and act as an original religious thing, making people's hearts work as good bacteria that lead to a better heart.

When you enter Nembutsu Sanmai, your physical senses become weak, and eventually a “feeling of the sky” that transcends the existence of one's own and others is born. (There is no proper word, so the expression “experience” is used.)
The feeling of emptiness is nothing more than an entrance to the Nembutsu Sanmai Staircase where you will receive the fusion of the real and living Nyorai.

I don't know what “nothing” you seek is, but “I want to make my ego disappear!” I thought that wish was the basis of the motivation for initiation, no matter which method of conduct was chosen, so I reported it.

There are various methods for Nembutsu Sanmai, and the content isn't very easy to write, so I'll omit them. (Or maybe there are other methodologies that come to nothing)
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