Is it bad to want to die

[Heaven, World, and Only Me]
It means that I am precious because I am alone in the world.
For the time being, this is supposed to be a line spoken by walking seven steps and pointing fingers up and down right after the Buddha was born. Nonetheless, this is not a line uttered by the Buddha to appeal to him because of his special presence. Actually, it's a “fact of life” that applies to everyone. Of course, your presence is included here.

In my case, even after I realized this one day, no matter what kind of terrible situation I encountered, I suddenly stopped thinking “I want to die” or “I am anyway” as if it were a lie.

I don't mean to drop banal calligraphy such as “being kept alive,”
When I think about the background of the fact that I am living here alone, I feel a connection that is so dynamic and infinitely expanding. I'm not great, I'm not famous, and the world may go around for some reason even if I'm not alone, but after all, I'm aware that I too am a precious person no different from Buddha or Christ. So you can't be lousy.

It would be the best if it were like this. For now, if food, clothing, and housing are established, I think most problems can be confronted without “I want to die.”

> Is it bad to want to die?

That's it.

I'm sorry that I suddenly missed the point of your question, but let's stop thinking “good or bad.”

Nonetheless, it's probably not a “bad thing” if that's the case in the format you want. Wanting to die is also a “feeling or emotion.” The “feelings and emotions” that spring up aren't something you do with your own power, and it would be a problem if you were blamed for being a “bad thing” for those feelings to come to mind.

However, I think that attitude choice is being questioned whether to catch those “feelings and emotions” that have come to mind and stagnate there themselves, or whether to let go of them and seek more realistic responses.

> I feel so relieved when I imagine when I die.

That is certainly true for you. However, it is a kind of “healing,” and in other words, I think it is a state of “just feeling safe.”

Even if you feel safe for a moment, it will only become difficult again if nothing has changed in the actual situation. Is it an act of escaping reality where you run away there again, or is it really reassuring by thinking “I want to die,” and is it a power to deal powerfully and realistically with “intent to die” in the sense of being in a difficult situation...

I wonder which one.

It's not good or bad, it's probably whether it's a really effective attitude choice for actual issues.

Do you really want to die or do you really want to live?

Which one is your real wish? I'm sure you've noticed it yourself.

After that, let's check what is an effective attitude choice for that true wish, not good or bad, as someone said, in your own steps.

Mirano-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Now, let's change the diagram.

The current state of “living = painful/painful” is “living = certainly in the reincarnation of loss and suffering, but luckily I was born as a person, and I am at a thankful point where I can learn and practice Buddhism, which is a teaching for getting rid of lost suffering.”

The current state of “death = freedom from living” means “if you don't lose the ignorance, anguish, and misdeeds that cause reincarnation even after death, you will eventually be born into a world of confusion and suffering even if you die”

As such, in order to be truly saved, it is important to learn and practice Buddhism.

By all means, I hope you can use this as an opportunity to work on Buddhism in earnest.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Every living person dies at least once.
So I'm sure they'll die. Even if you're not impatient, that time will come someday, so don't worry about death.
And there are times when everyone wants to die. So it's not wrong to think that.

I want to die because I want to feel better. I think that's a little different.
Getting easier depends on your mind and way of thinking, so I don't think it will be easy no matter how much you die.
Because death is just the physical body destroyed, and the mind and consciousness don't change anything, so it probably stays that way forever.
So, even if you die, it won't be easy. Rather than that, I think it's better not to think that it will be easier when you die.

> But my mother scolded me when I talked about this, but I don't know why she's getting mad at me.
I don't think mom really understood either. Also, when people talk about death, such as because it will be easier when they die, they all think of sadness, fear, and anxiety first, so it's a topic they want to avoid. It's normal to put the first thing to think about being able to live well and well together forever, so you probably don't want to think that it will be easier if you die as an extreme argument.

I can't say it's too difficult, but that's what I thought.