Is suicide something you shouldn't do

I'm not saying you shouldn't.
However, in your case, it still doesn't work.
I don't know anything about you, but I think there's still something I can do.
Isn't there something that needs to be done?
Maybe there's someone somewhere in Japan waiting to help you.
There may be people waiting to be loved by you.
I think there are still many possibilities.
So it's still no good.
First, let's work hard at work, study, or something else.
If one thing gives you confidence, and if you can accomplish something, I think it will give you the confidence to live.
I think there is also a path that can be seen beyond that.
Life is really unpredictable.
I don't know what's going to happen.
It must be painful.
But where does that pain come from?
Aren't your values, assumptions, likes and dislikes, insecurities, regrets, etc. born from within yourself?
If so, let's take the plunge and let go of them.

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Are they hated?
What do people around you hate about you?

Yes, there it is! “I'm the one who's having a hard time, but why aren't people saying anything to you in the outfield?” there! It's really there!

If there's someone in front of you who's having a hard time, you should listen to them. You can comfort them even if they can't listen to you. If you can't comfort them, just keep it quiet. That's what kindness is.
But for some reason, there's a trend where the more you diss, the better you get. It's a strange world.

Everyone is dismissed, hurt, and cornered. From growing up in an environment where that is commonplace, serious people dislike themselves. If you look to the right, you won't look to the left! I was told, if I looked to the left, why didn't I look to the right! I was told, and if you look at it alternately left and right, don't do anything half-hearted! It is said. how is it going to happen. they just want to spit poison, right?
But actually, people who dissing like that also have darkness where they can't live today or tomorrow unless they spit poison... what a vicious cycle.

Certainly, society will move forward with that. But moving forward in such a way doesn't make you happy. I can't help but notice that this way of thinking has created a distorted society where 30,000 people die by suicide every year even though it is one of the world's leading economic powers! That's the story. This is Japan's national disease today. If you can only speak ill of it, the outfield is cool!!!

It's okay for M5 to get even more angry. Rather, it was much more amazing when the older people were young. They all rioted because university teachers didn't give serious lectures, and they didn't get tired of just throwing stones, and they killed police officers by throwing blocks of concrete and even Molotov cocktails close to 20 kg. Those people saw recent heinous crimes by individuals and said, “Japan has gone crazy! It's deplorable!” It's a strange world because of what you're saying.
Well, this is an extreme comparison, but it's better for today's young people to live a little more carefree. It's good to live a full and carefree life. I blamed myself for everything, and that was too serious. Let's live a hectic life, keep it up.

Also, be aware that there is an appropriate method for getting angry or being aggressive. It's good to learn things like that.

Buddhism is teaching to reduce the suffering of oneself and others.
If someone were to suffer because of you committing suicide, I don't think that's good.
Also, the idea that I want to commit suicide comes to mind because I have my own worries and suffering, so the current situation isn't good, is it?
If possible, it would be ideal not to even want to commit suicide and not commit suicide.

There are also experts who say that 90% of people who commit suicide are “depressed.”
If suicidal thoughts continue for days, there is a possibility that suicidal thoughts have occurred as a symptom of “depression.”
Please visit a medical institution.
Leaving it alone even though it's not healthy (not trying to treat suicidal thoughts) can also cause trouble and suffering.
If it can be treated, it is better to treat it.

M5-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

In terms of Buddhism, the pros and cons of suicide are not judged by the act itself, and emphasis is placed on mental problems and state of mind.

Examples of how Shakyamuni was also not an act of suicide itself, and that he paid attention to that person's state of mind can also be seen from the following discussion.

“Does Buddhism really prohibit suicide?”
http://www.geocities.co.jp/Technopolis/3138/suicide_buddhism.html

If you have enough hesitation or suffering to the extent that you want to commit suicide, Buddhism shows many ways to resolve it.

Whether they commit suicide or not, there are places where they eventually die, and after all, the problem is that by adjusting the state of mind as something better and pure, getting rid of hesitation and suffering, it is a place where you want to move towards a better destination.

I hope you can take a fresh look at my state of mind once again.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho