I want to die.

I'll answer them by referring to past questions.
A friend of mine has attempted suicide many times due to depression. The treatment is over now, and this is what they say.

“I'm being saved because I think I'm depressed. This is a symptom of depression, even if you go from one side to the other with bad thoughts! It's not that my humanity is bad! I think so I can't stay cornered.
Also, since it's an illness, I think it's okay if I take medicine even if it recurs. So I feel safe and can relax my mind. After all, I'm not taking medicine right now, but since I have it like an amulet, it won't recur.”

Wow, Naruhod, I thought there was such a way of thinking. My thoughts just grew bigger, crap! or die! Even if something comes to mind, I think “that's because it's a symptom of an illness” and don't chase after it... it's a good way to deal with illness, isn't it?

If you think about it, even if the Buddha lost his mind after enlightenment, he said, “This is the work of Mara (the devil in the heart). Marla, go away!” I told myself, so it's an even better way to get along.

I'm sick, so I'm fine. It's good because I'm sick. There is also such a way of life.

Hello. It's cold today, isn't it?

I also read past questions.
I thought it was wonderful that “there are still more things I want to do by looking 5 or 10 years ahead” was written in past questions.
It may not be progressing well right now due to emotional issues, but I think it's good to move forward while watching your recovery, even when you're feeling a little better.

I heard that you specialized in sculpture at university. I like sculpture too. Currently, Unkei's works are on display at the Ueno National Museum (until 11/26). Have you seen it? It's very good. Works that are regarded as “Unkei's debut works” have been exhibited, and I thought they were splendid works, so I continued to look at other works, but when I look at “debut works” again after watching them all, it makes me think that Umirito was immature at the time. After all, I thought the more works I made, the better I got.

I've also been suffering from a type of depression called “panic disorder” for the past 10 years or so. When it was terrible, I couldn't read my favorite books, couldn't listen to music, and didn't want to watch TV. What I hear is deafening, and even if I want to focus on everything, I can't concentrate because I hear voices cursing me. I'm recovering little by little by properly listening to the doctor's conversations, taking medicine properly, keeping as much distance as possible from bad things, and being familiar with the soil, such as gardening.
I'm sure you'll be fine too. Even more so if you have dreams.

Don't overdo it. Let's eat something tasty today, stay warm, and fall asleep.

That's not your real intention. The illness only temporarily makes me think so. So, don't be misled by the disease now and wait for your physical condition to recover a little bit.
If you catch a cold, you'll have a fever, but it will heal in a few days, right? Same as that. That's because the symptoms of wanting to die will subside over time.
May your symptoms subside.
Namu Amida Buddha
Please protect your ancestors.
Namu Amida Buddha

I read it.
I'd like to hear about your painful feelings.
Please calm your mind little by little by taking a breath first.
Also, please write down your feelings slowly without being in a hurry.

You will definitely be saved.
The Buddha, your ancestors, and many others are always watching over you.
Please don't worry.

Please take your time and let me listen to your story.

We are always waiting for you.

Let's think about the continuation of life together.