I read your consultation.
You're thinking a lot about suicide, aren't you?
Now, “committing suicide without causing trouble” is probably an impossible story. Since you cannot dispose of your own body yourself, you will always be bothered by people. If it is a suicide, you can imagine that the psychological burden on those dealing with it will be heavier than when that is not the case.
However, if someone stops you from committing suicide, it's not because it's annoying. I don't want them to commit suicide, so I stopped it.
On the other hand, from your point of view, it would be an annoying story if you really wanted to commit suicide.
Have you noticed?
People cause trouble to each other. They continue to cause trouble from birth until death. There's no such thing as not being helped by someone or something.
So instead of causing trouble, let's do our best to be forgiven even if you cause trouble, or to be able to give something back, or be grateful to the fullest.
If you want to do it, you won't fall into arrogance if you don't cause trouble, and have the humility that you can't help but cause trouble no matter what.
If that's the case, let's express our “thanks so far” as you said. Also, let's talk about “the circumstances so far.” The judgment that led to your decision to commit suicide is reasonable for those listening to the story, and if it makes you think that there is no other way, that person will not be able to blame your judgment even though they are sad, frustrated, lonely, and helpless.
And now that they've listened to the story, let's listen to the other one too.
In Buddhism, there is a path of self-interest and altruism (a balance between for me and for you) that doesn't end up being a nuisance even if you cause trouble there.
At that time, everyone wants you to notice. If it's good to cause trouble to die, then it's okay to live by causing trouble. There are also people who are happy to be bothered. It's also annoying that only you decide whether it's just a nuisance or not.
Well, this is also related.
Why don't you talk about why people think about suicide in the next question? huh? is that me? annoying? That's ridiculous. I do it because I like it. This is how I listen to the story because I like it.
Please let me cause you my trouble.