I definitely want to ask you something

Good morning.

I've never been told by an old friend, “You've changed your personality since you became a monk,” so I don't think my personality has changed (laughs)

I have a personality created by various relationships since I was little, so it seems that it didn't change dramatically with Buddhism in my case. But when I came across Buddhism, I thought, “I don't have this kind of personality. There is a part called “Let's make improvements.” For example, I wonder if I want to stop worrying forever about what I've done. It's not going to get better, though.

Good morning.

Changes in personality before and after becoming a monk...

Hmm, I don't know lol

It's difficult to be aware of your personality, so you can't do it yourself. People around me have never said, “That's changed.” You may have been told things like “I've grown up” or “I've settled down,” but I think that's probably not due to “becoming a monk,” but rather due to aging and life experiences.

So when it comes to what has changed since becoming a monk, does it mean that I was able to gain a place of support that I can rely on whether my content changes or not?

I myself am a blurry being blurry depending on relationships (conditions), whether I become a monk or not, so I feel more important than anything else to be able to get an unblurred base where I can get peace of mind that I don't get blurry and can get peace of mind that it's OK to blur.

I've changed~

Because your identity is changing, right?
That's because they go from being just a layman to becoming a [Buddha disciple].

But of course there are a lot of things that haven't changed...

Chiemi-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

After all, I think the more I progressed in my Buddhist practice, the strangely sharp points became slightly more rounded than before. It also seems like the number of people who get angry has decreased.

After that, I also felt like I had some peace of mind at last...

I also think they used to be more impatient.

However, there may be times when peace of mind for future generations has been cultivated through training through Buddhist relationships.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

But my behavior has changed.

I am now able to accept myself,
I don't care about other people's eyes anymore,
I don't think it's a retracted thought anymore.

The way of thinking has changed,
My behavior has changed, so
You might seem to have changed your personality from the sidelines.

I feel a connection with the Buddha.
Before I became a monk, I thought working in the morning (reading sutras in the main hall in the morning) was about work as a monk, but now I feel that's not the case.
Instead of going to the main hall to worship on their own, they were invited by the Buddha.
That heart became the axis of life.

There are times when I feel like I've left the world behind.
When I look at the sky all the time, I think there is space beyond that, and at the end...
When I look at flowers, every year is different, even in the same cosmos.
There is meaning in it, and I feel that each flower also emits its own personality.

Life is training, and it trains both body and spirit.
I feel that there is meaning in not being productive.

I thought Buddha statues were ordinary wooden crafts or bronze statues, but that's not true.
If you face the Buddha with your heart, you can show me the depths of your heart.

I was told that it was hard, but I also think that writing something out of the ordinary would be an answer just by telling it to myself.

What I feel now is that when I'm in the secular world (when I was an office worker) and when I changed my mind, I could become a monk.
At least that's what I think.

It's still developing, though.