I want to die

I read it.
First, please take a slow breath.
Then, little by little, please rest your mind little by little, rest both mentally and physically.
And please release your mind little by little, and heal your heart.

And please take your time to look back at you.

Your life is yet to come.

Your future is about to open up.

Various encounters and events are about to come to you.

That's because you can grow healthy and big in the midst of it.

Your life will continue to be blessed.

There are many sad, painful, and painful things in life, but it also brings you a lot of joy, fun, happiness, growth, and success.

I sincerely pray that you will be blessed with wonderful encounters and events in the future, that many relationships will be formed, and that you will grow healthily from the bottom of your heart.

And I wholeheartedly support you!

Please never forget that so many people are supporting you and are not supporting you.

Nice to meet you. My name is Kameyama Junshi.
Our lives are always fraught with regrets. There is no life without regrets. “I wish I had done that at that time.” “Why did you do such a thing.” Everyone lives a life driven by remorse. Everyone has a “time” where they want to go back to that time again. My son died suddenly in February of this year in an apartment in Sendai. I met him two days before he died. At that time, how many times would I have thought that it would be great if I had stayed in Sendai too. However, no one can reverse the film of one's life.
There is a paperback book called “Satoshi (Satoshi)'s Youth,” which describes the life of the genius shogi player Murayama Seikudan. He contracted nephrotic syndrome, which is an intractable kidney disease, when he was five years old. Also, his father teaches him shogi in his hospital room, who is no longer able to run outside. Then, while battling illness, he grew into a shogi player known as “Hanyu of the East, Murayama of the West.” However, cancer in his bladder was discovered when he was 27, and he passed away in the summer of 1998 at the young age of 29.
“Why did I get this illness? The feeling that I'm unlucky is not good for my body or mind. More and more people with physical disabilities must be having a hard time. Humans are always subjective, and we can only understand the pain of others through our own pain. So I don't really understand the feelings of people with physical disabilities or serious illnesses.”
This is a passage from the manuscript that spells out his thoughts on chronic illness. Also, in his memo when he was 22,
“Humans were born to grieve and suffer. That is human destiny, and happiness. Even if I die, I want to be born a human again.”
Something called is left behind. For him, happiness was not simply about being healthy; it was probably found in living through sorrow and suffering to the fullest. Also, my heart was greatly shaken by his words that even though there was a lot of sorrow and suffering, that is life, and that I want to be born again as a human being.
Please, please, cherish your own life and live a life where you want to be born a human again.

Hello Rina.

You did your best, didn't you? It was a struggle, wasn't it? I'm sorry.
However, material happiness cannot necessarily be obtained through hard work alone. It's not just you, it's the same for many people. You won't have a hard time if you can be happy that people envy just by making an effort. In that sense, the world is cruel. 70% of people around the world can't even eat food satisfactorily. Even the poor lives of Japanese people are envied when viewed from around the world.

But even if your heart is poor, you can be happy with your own heart alone.
It's about throwing away the happiness of worldly success, Rina. Don't ask for it. Something like this one can break any time. You don't know what will happen to your happy friend right now. You just happened to know that reality early. But if you overcome it, true happiness awaits.

If you're about to die, enter the world of the Buddha. Then you can know true happiness. Happiness that cares about people's eyes always results in suffering. Gassho

Dear Rina

Happiness is not about being made or not, it is about making it or not making it.

If you want to make it, it's something you can make.

And you don't have to work hard alone.

It also received help and support from various people, and it became something that was created.

It's still too early to give up.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

“I tried my best, but I can't be happy”
is that so? Isn't that the wrong direction in which you worked hard?
I often hear the beautiful saying “effort never betrays people,” but this is a bit lacking in words.
“Right” efforts do not betray people. This is called [Seishin] in Buddhism.

By the way, what do you think of as “happiness”?
Maybe the definition of “happiness” isn't wrong?

Even if you think thoroughly about it once before you die, you'll probably be hit by a bee.

Your way of life is like entering a treasure trove and coming out empty-handed...
Chanchara is crazy.