I was subjected to power harassment 2 years ago, and I became an atypical “depression.”

As I mentioned at the beginning, this is a story for you to be “liberated” and move towards “getting better.”
You may be in a difficult situation right now, but I am not blaming you; it is something that supports you. Therefore, you should not be hurt by the following words, and please look at any words with a strong attitude that is not linked to a negative image.

This is just my personal experience.
Taunting was commonplace at the ascetic dojo where I was. Over the course of 10 years, I've witnessed bad practices.
“Die, scum, go home...”... there are also words flying around that can't be put on anything else.
In fact, there were many acts that would be regarded as “acts of bullying” in modern times.
Those words, the period when I was directly subjected to corporal punishment, really fell into a sense of victim.
Speaking of being hurt, I'm hurt.
But I thought I didn't want to get hurt. This is because I thought that if I keep putting myself in the group where I was hurt and the group where my heart was broken for a long time, I would definitely not be able to get out of there.
If I were to summarize the things I learned at that dojo so as not to get hurt myself into three,
① You must never have a victim mentality → you just become negative. Since I'm just putting myself into a situation where I don't have confidence for the rest of my life → I felt that it would be better not to have a sense of being a victim without holding a grudge against the other person for the sake of myself.
② No matter what horrible scene unfolds in front of you, don't take it directly → keep a distance → keep yourself away from your opponent's violence and malice.
〈This is something we can do right now. This is because repetition of flashbacks etc. eventually reminds me “now” of things that are a burden on the mind at this point, so even if they are reminded, there is a distance〉
③ The person who said it is Kerori and is alive now. I'm still obsessed with the past. This makes me feel like I've lost something. If so, abandoning the feeling of hatred towards your partner and letting yourself walk into the current reality of today, today, today, and today is the shortest way to scoop yourself up from the bottom first.
In terms of character count, that's all. I pray that things will get better.

Takaki-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

While my mental illness hasn't been completely healed, the closure and dismissal of a place of business that I felt happy at last... it's no wonder that I'm falling into anxiety about the future...

Anyway, I hope you will concentrate on treatment for a complete cure, and then gradually think about the following and proceed with preparations.

As for medicine... I have volunteered at welfare workshops before, and from my experience at that time, I personally know that it is necessary to aim for treatment that does not rely on medicine as much as possible. Of course, it's case by case, and it's not something that can be said unequivocally... but I hope they can increase the number of places, actions, and times where the mind can be calmed and stabilized without relying on medicine, and that heal the mind as much as possible. I know for sure that we should never lock ourselves in.

Getting down to business, Buddhism certainly deals with reincarnation theory and karma theory. There is a reason for cause and effect in everything in this world, and there is “no cause, no effect.” However, if you try to go all the way to the cause, you will fall into infinite regression and infinite retrospection. It feels like the cause of the cause is also the cause...

Of course, I think it is possible to infer recent causal relationships from empirical theory, induction, and deduction methods, but to be honest, it is quite difficult for us ordinary people to hear and know about the causal flow of reincarnation and karma. Also, work that brings about common results in many groups is called “coworking” (gugo), and this content is absolutely impossible for us ordinary people to fully understand what causes collaboration and the myriad complex flow of causes and effects.

However, with regard to causal relationships, all things and things are established (auspicious) due to dependency relationships, so it is important in considering the “sky” where something established as an entity cannot be anything.

At the top of the character limit, even if you try to think about causes and effects that have passed in the past, you probably won't be able to get an answer. Rather than that, I know what can be done to change the future flow of cause and effect in a positive direction, and that it is important to make adjustments so that we can advance and accumulate good deeds little by little, especially actions that will benefit the future.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Thank you for your question, Takaki.

They are harassed by power and develop “depression.”
He was fired after taking a leave of absence.

It hurts my heart too when you've had a painful experience.

The experience of being fought against power harassment by my boss, and the experience of having relationships with people I can call “friends.”
In the midst of a difficult experience, wasn't this a wonderful one for you too?

This world is called “the darkness of ignorance.”

There is no light at all.
That's actually the state we're in.

They lose their way and suffer, and live in it.

Shinran Shonin wrote, “An unhindered light is a blessing that breaks the darkness of ignorance.”
(Light without touching (Amida's light) is a wonderful sun that overcomes the darkness of ignorance)

Since I experienced darkness, I think I was moved by the splendor of Amida's light.

You've had a really difficult experience.
And anxiety may continue.

However, to varying degrees, it is also the reality of human life.

“Things You Can See in the Dark”
Why don't you take a close look at it and start walking from there?

I read “Thank You from the Questioner.”
Thank you very much.

There's something I'm a little concerned about, so I'll take a “thank you” and write it from here on.

I feel that the desire to make “life” shine is really sad.

On the other hand, I would like you to do your best to make it happen,
I would also like you to be aware that “being alive” itself has a big meaning.

As the words “make a full profit just by being alive” or “a species with life” express,
If the focus is only on getting out of pain and suffering,
You may lose sight of the value of “life.”

The fact that you are “alive” itself is appreciated.
I would like to add one word.

　When I read the content of this question, I can see the actual state of society today in various ways, and they seem to have opinions on power harassment, unity, and closure of business establishments...
I think it's amazing that Takaki confronted her boss head-on while being exposed to a mental illness and was harassed. If it were me, I would just spend my days complaining to my colleagues and just enduring it. Speaking of “Hanzawa Naoki,” I may be saying too much.
The reason why a business site has been closed may be the case when it comes to causal compensation, but the original meaning of causal compensation is “rewarding results according to the cause,” and it is also used in a good sense. “If you sow seeds, shoots will appear and crops will grow.” etc. I was concerned about Takaki capturing negative images like “being hit by a bee.” Therefore, the closure of the office was due to poor performance or management, and I think the company side was unavoidable in terms of management, so there is no problem with Takaki. Don't blame yourself.
I have also experienced many setbacks, but while I persevered, a helping hand was extended from an unexpected place. If Takaki also acts patiently, I think someone like the god of salvation will surely appear. I think I can only think about myself right now, but I hope that someday I will be a person who can be compassionate to others through myself. That's because Takaki knows the feelings of people who have been harassed best.

To Takaki-sama

In the midst of a lot of things
I also think that Takaki, who is working so hard, is wonderful.

In life
There are things you can't do on your own.
And it's all impermanent.
That state of affairs will not last forever.

Forgive what happened up until now
Isn't there no choice but to face forward and live?

As in Takaki's thank-you note
The feeling of “I want to live, I want to make my life shine”
If so, I'm sure there will be a wonderful future and path ahead.
I'm praying with little effort, too. Gassho