I would like to hear your feedback.

　I respect you for taking the risk of getting hurt and exposing your feelings. However, since it's not an “opinion/advice,” it's an “impression,” I feel that you haven't penetrated it yourself yet.
“There were a lot of painful things”... I think I was very aware. Humans have greed, and it often doesn't come true, so it's often painful. At school, there are people who occasionally whisper “school is fun, work is fun,” but “there are a few fun things at school, from my point of view,” is true, and more than half of them have been omitted. Anyway, I'm glad I noticed it.
“Even if you pack up your knowledge, you'll be hazy”... this is true. Knowledge is useful only when you use it. If you say “I got Dragon Sword” on the Famicom, it's nothing if you don't equip it and use it. Rather, aren't they “excited because they want to try it out”?
“If there are rules”... of course, there are rules. To swim through that design is to “live in society.” However, the difference from schools is that “there is a possibility that the rules themselves will be changed/made.”
“It's better to die”... I think it's easy to say. Did you watch images of people who were killed in the Paris attacks? Have you seen footage of people killed in air strikes? I don't mind if I want to get away from something I don't like, but I feel like there are too few options.

I don't know what you're learning at university from your question, but if it's humanities, subscribe to lectures and textbooks. If it's science, it's a day of experiments and organizing data. Either way, it seems like you can't feel the appeal.

I'm afraid it's a private matter, but I was initially a law student, but I spent time working part-time at Suzumesou, a movie theater, an izakaya, and a club, so I couldn't say that I studied much. Therefore, I had a hard time in job hunting, and I got a job by barely getting caught in a certain civil service exam where I was able to stop slipping. When I got a job, I looked at practical work, and what I learned at the university's Faculty of Law was hardly directly useful. But at the same time, I also regretted that if I had been in law school, I should have studied law a little more properly.
I think there are differences in degree depending on the individual person, but if you get a job, I think you will have similar impressions. Studying at university is not a sufficient condition for living as a member of society, but there are things that can be necessary. There aren't that many periods in my life where I can read a book carefully and listen to a lecture carefully. Even if I don't really feel during my time at university, I always feel it after graduation, even if I don't really feel that much during my time at university. I would like to thank you for giving me the opportunity and time to concentrate on my studies. If you can't do that, it's like throwing college tuition fees away.

Studying for entrance exams and university may not be easy either. But after all, it's a battle against problems on paper, and there is only one answer. Society is different from the paper test world. It's a tough world. Memory, comprehension, and thinking skills are emphasized in the paper test world. In society, in addition to these abilities, negotiation skills, presentation skills, etc. are also required. It's a tough world, but it's an opportunity for new learning in the field of society, and there are also opportunities to meet new people.
You can't achieve success in life without hard work. If you try to choose only the easy path, you won't be able to find true pleasure or joy there. Give up indulgence, face difficulties, and carve out your own life. With that attitude, please live a student life with the few remaining days, and get off to a start as a member of society.

How about using your own money for the Retirement Plan?
Or maybe I've been watching the world by playing Pooh for a year.
I think it's probably a state where a bound world is surrounded.
The second year is a joke, but you'd think that's really...
If you don't think about it, that's fine too, but maybe it's time to take initiative yourself.
I wonder how they've adjusted to their surroundings until now.
You can decide for yourself.
I think you're vulnerable to getting hurt.
In order not to get hurt, you need to be free from your thoughts.
Also, I need to know that I have always been hurt and hurt by my own thoughts.
The rules aren't outside.
You can ride on even if there are rules outside. Like riding a wave.
To that end, I need to face my own heart and get to know myself and the world well.
I am creating “Lulu” and “it.”
Isn't it just that things that weren't originally rules have been “made into rules” within yourself? Zen and Buddhism are steps to heaven where you break away from that kind of self-devotion.

Don't hesitate to write what you think.

> After all, nothing can be done

It's natural. That's because learning means “preparing to do something.” Let's calculate backwards about making a chair out of wood.

Completion ← Assembly ← Processing of Timber ← Procurement of Timber ← Preparation of Blueprints ← Accumulation of Basic Knowledge (Imacoco)
This is what it is. It's natural. I'm in a place like that in my life stage, so it's a blink of an eye. That's fine.

However, I studied quite positively. The reason was that it was easy; the blueprint was drawn first. So I can use this knowledge here, and this explanation will one day be on my side, so this is my 5th explanation from a different teacher, but I went to class with the feeling that I listened to it with the intention of learning how to explain it. Why is that? Is it because it's on a rail that was built in a temple? I didn't want to be a monk. There was a backlash. So why?

The answer was easy: I did the processing and assembly while I was still a student. I was working part-time. Even though it was a part-time job, the store manager worked for about 3 days off per year, and there were about 5 full-time employees for 100 non-regular people, overtime and overtime high missed the last train due to positions of responsibility even for non-regular people! It's what we call it today, a black company that is out of date. For me, I wasn't doing a “part-time job,” I thought I was doing a “job,” and the store taught them that way, and all the veterans thought that. I became a department leader of about 20 people, developed human resources, closed cash registers, calculated sales targets, and managed consumables for the entire store by myself. That was tough. After all, while doing that, I graduated with about 160 credits, and I often went to the library to study. Actually, studying wasn't Buddhism, and since it was business administration, it was fulfilling with the synergy effect with my part-time job lol

Well, in the end, it wasn't compatible with my graduation thesis, and I had a fight with the store manager for half a year and broke up, but let me say that as my impression. If you're confused, do it. I'm confused because I haven't done it. You can do it part-time or volunteer, so you should do it. That's because it's easier.