I'm sure your deep loneliness is my selfish guess (sorry if it wasn't), but I wonder if you've been wrapped in loneliness since you were young? Because of that loneliness, they tried to believe in people over and over again, and as a result, they were betrayed, and the darkness of that loneliness was deepened? It seems like people drifting in the ocean can't stand their thirst, drink seawater, and suffer extra thirst. At least I don't think the words of the monk Hasunoha are saltwater. Since it's fresh water, it should quench your thirst (hard water, soft water, groundwater, and tap water). But for those of you who are drifting in the ocean, that much water you give out is temporary, and I feel like you're suffering from dry throat again. What the monk wants from you is for you to be happy. So if you are suffering from thirst, I will give you fresh water. But at the same time, I want you to advance towards Riku no Izumi. Each word shows you the direction of land, teaches you how to swim in order to get there, and holds out a float. And I hope that you will swim using a float and head to the land where there is a spring (to happiness). However, if you have been betrayed over and over and it has become difficult to trust people (it's not your fault, because you are the victim), even if you can drink the fresh water offered by the monk, you may be hesitant to proceed to the land springs, and that may be unavoidable. However, as Tange Shonin said, I want them to accept Kozen Shonin's feelings and aim for the Riku no Izumi. There's always fresh water there to moisturize your throat. My parishioner's daughter is worried that you may be in the same sense of loneliness as herself. She is also hesitating and depressed, but she is trying to move towards Riku no Izumi, and she says she wants to be friends with you. Your post has helped many people, including that young lady, and even if it's hard to accept, please come back to drink that fresh water and someday to reach Rikunoizumi, both she and I are waiting. The Buddha saves more than weak people.