I'm just tired. I want to die already.

I read it.
I sincerely ask the Buddha that that child be saved by the Buddha, led by the Buddha, passed away in the Buddha's pure land, and be at peace of mind, and I will be quiet with Nembutsu.
Namu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu
That child will definitely be reincarnated into Buddha's Pure Land of Paradise and will truly feel at ease.
And they will continue to watch over you gently from now on.
The relationship between you and your child will last forever.

Please do a memorial service for that child with all your heart.

Life changes drastically due to various relationships and encounters.
It's beyond your power.

We asked the Buddha for everything. It's important to just keep quiet with Nembutsu, and believe in the Buddha.

One day, the time will surely come when you and I will complete our lives. Please be sure to be guided by the Buddha at that time and pass away in the Buddha's Pure Land of Paradise with all your heart.

The Buddha will always guide you, and the Buddha will definitely reunite you and your child.

There will be no shortage of sorrow and regret, but please put your hands on the Buddha and convey those thoughts.

The Buddha will accept your thoughts just the way they are.

Please continue to cherish your relationship with that child and believe correctly.

That kid will keep snuggling up to you and watching over you no matter what.

Have you tried searching for a “house where there were no deaths”? It seems that Kisago Tommy walked around for days. Have you used your legs and body to visit various people and ask them for it?
What I feel for you is “it seems like you're only seeing part of things.” It's like “look at the trees and don't see the forest.” “What is growing here is a red pine tree. So, all of these forests are red pines.” “I'll be defecating this meal tomorrow, too. So even if you eat it, it's not worth it.” “It's a theory in this world that meeting is the beginning of parting ways. That's why I don't do anything to anyone.”
Have you ever seen a baby crying? I cry because I want to live, I think so. Of course, that child will eventually die. “You're going to die one day, so there's no point in doing anything”? Did that kitty meow? How were you when you were a baby?
Another thing I feel is that “words addressed to the Buddha” are written on the internet. In other words, I'm asking the boy. We are not Buddhas. I'm a human who wants to be like the Buddha. Therefore, if your feelings have been put into words up to this point, I recommend that you go to a Buddhist altar (or pray at a temple) and complain about it.
However, “if the Buddha were to answer, maybe this...?” If you imagine
“The state of being alive already contains the seed of dying. Death is already factored in in the first place. So, in a limited life, learn, work hard, and do what you need to do on your own.”
“What truth do you mean? There's nothing you can gain from something you don't understand. I just know it's painful. If you have pain that you cannot bear on yourself, leave it to me. Call my name, sue, and follow my name”
“Are you worthy of salvation? Why are you trying to price it yourself? You may be able to decide your own salary, but it's not your power when it comes to passing away. Every human being is an ordinary person, so no matter how much you value yourself, it's 50 steps 100 steps. Whether you lower yourself or not, if you praise Namu Amida Buddha, I promise death.”
I, too, am dying. My parents, my wife, and my kids. Even so, there are days when “it's cool and comfortable under the trees.” There are also days when the sun is warm. Then they live with blemishes and probably have a day where they break up with everyone.

Tsugumi-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Saying goodbye to animals you've been close to is really painful... of course, I have experienced it.

dog, chicken, rabbit...

Maybe it's even more painful than the death of a relative...

In particular, it was really hard to break up with Kichomu-chan the lost rabbit...

I'm still leaving that farewell on the site...

Announcement of the transition of the lost rabbit “Kichomu” -chan
http://oujyouin.com/usagi.htm

Anyway, I did my best to offer a memorial service so that I could have a pure and good Buddha relationship and be guided to enlightenment.

The people in this Rikudo Reincarnation are all uniformly lost and in suffering.

However, Shakyamuni attained enlightenment and explained teachings to put an end to that hesitation and suffering.

I would be grateful if you could offer a memorial service as you learn and practice Buddhism so that everyone can eventually reach enlightenment.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Once upon a time, a famous monk was asked by someone to “write some words of congratulations.”
The monk wrote the words “parents die, children die, grandchildren die.”
In other words, it's a blessing to die in order from the elders.
It's sad that grandchildren die before their grandparents, isn't it?

It's probably the same for pets to die before their owners.
Conversely, if you suddenly die while leaving your pet in your room, your pet confined to your room may have no choice but to die of hunger and thirst.

Having a pet is also a part of the human ego.
If you're sad even if your pet dies first, and if you're sad even if you die first, you'll have no choice but to overdo it with your pet.
That would be a funny story.

Note, cats are a “animal source” in the Buddhist classification of life.
Animals are generally less intelligent than “humans” (humans), so of course it can be said that they are weak beings who are prone to traffic accidents.
So, there are aspects that can't be helped.
Unfortunately, playing with pets (animals) is originally like that.

Oh, I'm really sorry...
The cats that were kept by Tsugumi,

I'm sorry that the cat and kitten who have been with Tsugumi for 17 years died prematurely in a disastrous traffic accident,
By Tsugumi, who was your owner, by her own hands
It made Tsugumi completely hopeless and extremely exhausted,
They take away the will to live, take away the scum, and at the end of the day they try to kill them,
And even the Buddha's mercy is tempting to make them ask for it themselves, the quality is poor
They are now about to be used by demons, demons, monster cats, and mononoke.

The cat who stayed with Tsugumi for so many years must have been very sad when you passed away, but you probably hoped and appreciated Tsugumi's happiness until the last moment you ran out of life.
The kitten that got into the accident must have been really scared too. it must have been painful.
But apparently, it seems that the person who was the owner just kept you was killed.

The owners, who you all lived with, apparently don't know the true meaning of “mourning” you guys. Those are really poor cats. On behalf of the owner, I offer my sincere condolences. So please feel at ease when you leave. Next, please be reborn as a human.
Good-bye.

Namu Amida Buddha Nanmu Amida Buddha Gassho

From Hasunoha Senrakuin

※Please tell me properly, Tsugumi.