A life like a scum ruining one's own life

I am human waste. It's like a scum wandering at the bottom.
I'm a man who has ruined my life on my own.

It's rubbish.
I'm wandering around the bottom of my life without taking advantage of the opportunities my parents gave me or the opportunities I grabbed myself, my income was low, I couldn't build up any skills, and I was wandering around the bottom of my life.
I hate my own immaturity as a human being.
Regardless of whether they just hate themselves, I still hate my parents, who were raised in a way that neglected relationships by saying that they should just study from a long time ago, even when they are in their late 30s. That's pathetic.
Until now, I was alone without getting used to the organization or university. I didn't learn how to deal with people or hobbies when I was a child. This has led to a lack of confidence, and I am denying myself and not being able to seize opportunities.
I changed jobs over and over again, had nothing to build up, didn't get used to my surroundings, and was always being treated as a freak, hoping that I could at least go to a good university and earn a good income, but I took that opportunity by myself.
I want them to tell me how to live.
Thank you for your support.

4 Zen Responses

Don't let gas out of your heart's chimney so that Santa will come

Merry Christmas.
Hello. This is Santa, the housekeeper. I am a housekeeper = chief priest of a temple in Sayama City, Saitama Prefecture.
Don't talk so much about yourself.
I'll give you this, beard.
Please cheer up.
Speaking of beards, they say they despise things that speak ill of themselves.
Let's stop saying that we are, anyway, who we are.
Actually, it becomes a bad gas in your heart, and it becomes fuzzy like smoke, and Santa, the god of happiness, and Buddha can't get into your chimney.
Just stop underestimating yourself or judging yourself badly.
The majority of successful people in the world are people who have persevered and succeeded with the belief that they can do it.
Assumptions are fine. This is because I know that speaking ill of myself is my greatest misfortune.
Please try to write the story I sent you this time that doesn't slip away about your own misfortunes.
Even comedians make funny stories about their misfortunes, offer laughter to people like Santa, and even get paid.
Life must be fun, funny, and enjoyable.
If you do that, Santa will come in through the chimney of your heart without falling over.

Just a normal person everywhere

At the same time, there is no standard life anywhere.
If it's not like I can't help but be hungry
Live a more comfortable and proper life.
Relaxation is a kind of reopening.
If appropriate, please do so slowly.
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Even if you don't get along well with people or are looked down on
Once you eat food, you can live with it.
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The world doesn't know that it's always going to stay in one place.
Your surroundings and you are constantly changing.
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“Be like water”
These are Bruce Lee's words.
Speaking of Okada-kun, Kari, and Jee-Koon-Do from V6, do you know them?
Water doesn't have a fixed shape. So it fits the shape of the vessel. Bruce Lee's philosophy of softening the mind and overcoming difficulties is called Jeekwondo (Jeekwondo).
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Infinity is finite (infinity is finite)
Lawlessness makes legal (lawlessness makes lawless)
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The other day, there was a conversation between actor Karasawa Toshiaki and martial artist Nakamura Yorinaga's father on the NHK program “Tatsujin.”
The two-page calligraphy displayed in that background was written by me.
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If you don't stop walking honestly, you can get even a little bit of happiness.
Anyway, even if what you're doing now is boring, I recommend that you keep doing it casually.
　

Everyone is together

If you're a human being, I'm no different.

Even if they get married, things don't go well, they just fight, and they can only live by causing trouble to people,

There were times when they ran away with money to rebuild the main hall of a temple.

Even to me, the Buddha reached out his hand.

If it were you, fine.

If you take a short detour, that's fine.

There is no change even if you blame your parents and blame yourself

You think of yourself as scum. And you mean it's my parents' fault.

While saying that, they probably blame themselves over and over again. There is no point in trying to find a place of non-existent responsibility, so let's think about how we will live in the future.

They say they don't have anything they want to do in their future lives.
You have to work in order to survive. So let's just get the job done. It would be nice if you could find a sense of purpose in life, or have a hobby, etc., and find fun in it.

Even if there are events in the past that didn't go your way, don't get caught up in that, and enjoy your future life.

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