Life choices. I don't know what to do myself.

I'm a 28 year old female. At the beginning of this month, I was touched by my boyfriend who I had been in a relationship with for 2 years.
We were also conscious of getting married, and we've been talking about living together starting in spring. There were constant fights over that incident from around November, and he told me that he was full or that he wanted to be alone, and as a result, they broke up. I also blamed him a lot, so when we parted ways, we ended up apologizing properly and saying thank you. After that, I haven't heard from him or me, and I live a normal life while thinking it might drag on, and sometimes I'm looking forward to new encounters.
Somehow when I think about it now, it's time to break up, and I think this may have happened no matter what happened. I think that when something ends, something starts, I'm looking back at my situation right now. To be honest, I think I worked for my current company because I didn't want to leave his job because I might get married. When I think about it now. The current company is in a state of internal NEET. To be honest, I thought I'd stop after a year or so, so there were days where I thought just about anything, but pain is still pain. You are not allowed to sit and go outside. So, around September, I became severely constipated, my stomach hurt, and I went to the doctor in a cold sweat. My hip joint has been hurting since last month, and it has become difficult to walk, and now I'm going to an osteopathic clinic. Originally, my posture was probably bad, but at last, my pelvis misaligned, and when it was severe, I felt like I was puffy.
Menstrual pain and pre-menstrual syndrome have also gotten worse, and to be honest, I've been worried a lot about those things for the past six months or more. So I woke up early in the morning and tried to walk for about 30 minutes, but that lifestyle has already entered half a year. It's been 3 months since my first yoga session.
If I have various physical abnormalities, should I quit, or should I go to various doctors and work for this company while taking medicine, or should I just look for a job that takes my physical condition into consideration and start something new? To be honest, I don't know which choice I should make. Right now, my health is struggling, but I don't have the courage to lose this stable income. I also want to get married and get pregnant in the future. But I don't have that opponent either. I'm worried that it will show up. That kind of feeling has taken hold, and I'm always in a hazy situation right now.
What should I do now? If I leave myself to myself, will the road naturally open up?

5 Zen Responses

prioritised

It's very good to have this and that hope.
The first thing to do is write it out on paper, prioritize it at your own risk, and execute it.
I'll sacrifice other things until I get some results. I know that repeating it is important for life.
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You can't leave someone else to steer your precious life. Be firm.

Either one is fine, so I'm at a loss. A common scene.

If you're at a loss, either one is fine for you right now.
Right now, no one knows what will happen if you continue to stay at the company.
For you today, whichever you choose, it's not a mistake.
You can decide by rolling the dice.

When you really have to do that, you'll want to do it no matter what anyone says.
If there's a fire, you won't hesitate whether to run away or not.
There are everyday things on a daily basis that either one is fine, but you have to choose for the time being.
It's hard to worry about such everyday scenery.
It's OK to get lost, but I hope you think that just because you're lost doesn't mean you're unhappy.

Why don't you stop

There were a lot of things, and I think you did your best.

My physical condition has also gotten worse, and the first thing to do is not make it any worse.

Why don't you stop once in a while?

There must always be something you can see.

There are things you can't see until you stop.

I'm sure the Buddha will protect you.

It's fine.

If you're not in good health, why don't you take a short break

I think that's true that you have to earn money for a living. So why don't you take a break instead of quitting when it's hard.

If I had a new boyfriend during the holidays, maybe I wouldn't even have to quit my job.

I think it's fine if you don't make a decision right away.

Why don't you try something a little fun while having a good night?

Is there a next encounter even if I get dumped

Hello.
That indescribable feeling that occurs when you get dumped.
Let's call it a sense of loss, let's call it a sense of self-denial, or let's call it a feeling that what you've met up until now is gone, isn't it?
Please cherish the feeling of “having no end.”
I ended up with that boyfriend, but not everything is over.
Ending up with that person just means that something has become clear.
We stayed together, and it wasn't easy.
In other words, if they were married, they would end up getting divorced.
I was lucky that we broke up before we got married.
There are no losses. It didn't even put shame on my family and relatives.
Breaking up after getting married is extremely risky.
In that sense, there are plenty of positive aspects.
An acquaintance broke up after over 10 years of love.
It seems that there are some things that are difficult about that.
There are still more new encounters waiting for me.
Rather than lamenting what you've lost, it's about looking at what you've learned, the freedom, lessons, and value you've gained through your loss.
What you're suffering right now is suffering from secondary feelings of chasing about losing him rather than losing him.
Please check that out.
They have been deceived by second feelings, secondary evaluations, and the feeling of being chased after.
Please come out of there.

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