Why is it precious to be alive

Abusive parents were often abused when they were children.
People who weren't loved by their parents
Become a parent and I don't know how to love my kids
They say they will repeat the abuse they have suffered to their children
A chain of abuse will occur.
A person called “Hasegawa Hirokazu” has published many books on child abuse.

Isn't time in the past still stopped in your mind, Kanna?
It's a happy environment now, but who you were in the past
No matter what, I feel that it remains in my heart and in my memory.
“Personality Dissociation - Negative Me Within Me”
Aren't you addicted to the contents of the book called?
I thought the symptoms were similar.
I think there will always be a cure.
It's fine.
Overcoming that is the meaning of your life in this life.
God doesn't give you tests you can't overcome.
Please discover a new self beyond that.
I'm rooting for you.

It's fine. If you look for a way of life that can actually be saved, you can come to a conclusion. Even though I was a Buddhist, I was a rebel. This is because I really didn't have an encounter with a master (master teacher) who can be left to say that this person is fine. Until then, it had been hectic for a long time.
Sadly, humans can't compare unhappiness. Unfortunately, it is easy to change/improve/refine “how to live now” depending on the state of mind.
My life was in shambles, too. There was a time when I tried to commit suicide or almost gave up.
However, my encounter with my Sanzen master (Inoue Nukudo Roshi) taught me one big truth: “All suffering is done (by myself) in my own thoughts” (← please reread this over and over again). Recently, the scene I saw in Rikuzentakata after the earthquake flashed back for a few months, and I couldn't get it out of my head. However, at one point, an acquaintance crashed into a Coca Cola vending machine in his car, and it seems that there were flashbacks every time he saw the vending machine, and he said that by deepening his meditation, even though he had flashbacks every day, he bullied himself from there and made myself suffer ❝ I was able to stop my bad thoughts ❞. “I see, it's true that humans do think back to the past. There are certainly times when people suffer from it. However, if you just remember the past, good and evil will not be born there” (read ← about 30 times).
There is no blame (blame) on the facts of the past themselves, neither in your past, nor in anyone's past, and no one else's past has been judged as good or bad. Of course, there is also a past where we should judge and judge absolute evil or suffering.
What I want to say right after the flashback is, “Don't torment yourself with judgments and judgments about what is good or bad about your past.”
“The Chief Justice of the Supreme Court within you is your mind.”
If you are still suffering now, what is actually hurting yourself is your way of thinking. Buddhism is the teaching and way of life that frees you from ❝ black thoughts ❞ and makes you free.
In order to save yourself, please carefully select and ask for “sanzen-kai that will teach you so that you don't make yourself suffer.”
As if I had recovered from the rock bottom and told everyone, “It's okay,” I can draw a clear conclusion with your question today.

Kanna-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

I saw it. I'm sorry for the deep heartbreak... now I have a good partner, and little by little, I think I'm on my way to recovery with the support of everyone around me. Please don't overdo it, and I hope you can be healed little by little over time.

“I'm tired of hearing the words “you have to cherish the life you've been given”...

Certainly, I'm getting tired of hearing the typical answers to street one time... such words may be flimsy enough to blow away quickly when faced with a painful, sad, and painful reality...

And I wonder why they were born when they didn't want to...

These are quotes from my humble answers to each of the following questions...

Question “How to deal with my mother in the future”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/264

“Since we think about cause and effect in Buddhism, I think there is the current state as a result of various “relationships” being intricately intertwined while the power of each person's karma also acts in various ways. Being in such a position is due to some cause and effect, and a number of actions in this world will always have an impact on the state after death. Therefore, in Buddhism, it is basic to keep your mind as clean as possible, don't do anything bad, and work hard to do good deeds.”

Question “What do humans live for?”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/36

“There is a saying, “Ukagusoku (Ukagusoku) is difficult to obtain...” but as an example, “when you throw a lot of beans at once, like beans that don't fall to the floor and remain on the wall,” it is actually rare to receive life as a human being, and it can be obtained through good causes and relationships such as good deeds and Buddhist relationships from past lives.”

Therefore, it is hoped that those of us involved in Buddhism will firmly cherish this opportunity and work hard to practice “to aim for enlightenment.”

Even in this life, I would like you to say “being alive is precious” in order to proceed with ascetic practices aimed at enlightenment as much as possible.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

It wasn't originally a living thing, and I think it wasn't a phrase “life is precious.”

The fact that life is precious may somehow make you nod when you think about the incredible difficulty of life being born in this empty space called the universe.

The words “I am a survivor of child abuse” fill my heart. I'm sure it's because I have such a painful past that I'm thinking like this now. We are all connected like cobwebs. There is no independent existence. Isn't Kanna also happy and sad about people other than herself? There must be many people who think of Kanna in the same way.

There was a saying, “I think this kid was happy even though his life was lost when he was young.” No wonder Kanna thinks so. However, if that mother one day comes time to reflect on her actions, she may feel torn apart by the importance of what she has lost.

Life does not belong to one person. So I'm thankful to be alive, and I think it's precious.

Kanna
My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an, thank you for your support.

Even though I'm in a good environment now, I had a difficult experience during my precious childhood. And even now, he is suffering from flashbacks, and he is going to psychosomatic medicine again.
In response to Kanna, who is in such a situation, I thought it was wonderful just being alive.

Kanna says, “I think this child was happy even if it was a life scattered when they were young (due to abuse),” but I would like to paraphrase it with “I think the life scattered when I was young (due to abuse) was less painful for that child.”

This is because if you are alive, there is a possibility that you will gain happiness beyond suffering, so it is precious that Kanna is alive. If you die, your suffering will not increase, but your chances of attaining happiness will also be cut off.

“Don't say that without knowing the suffering of being abused!” You might think so.
However, I sincerely hope that those who have suffered great suffering will one day have happiness beyond that suffering and think, “It was a good life, even though it was hard.”
Also, I hope hasunoha can help with that.