I don't understand my true feelings

I'm sure your father was amazing when he was gone. But it's complicated for humanity to perish because of that.
Your husband may be feeling a little depressed. If you're depressed, saying words like “stay firm” or “do your best” may be counterproductive. Why don't you get counseling from a specialist once?
Everyone says “I'll be happy” very well, right? But happiness doesn't have the form of “becoming a doctor” or “becoming a monk.”
Happiness is something I think in my heart. “Ah, I'm happy” I ate something delicious, “Ah, I'm happy,” the sky is blue, “Ah, I'm happy”... Please keep up that feeling.
May the happiness for you be higher than the mountains.

Thank you for your support, Rumibo-san.

“How can I talk about my feelings?” However, it felt like reading a sentence, and Rumiboo and his wife said to each other, “I want you to understand yourself.” Isn't that what you think? Rumiboo also said, “Know yourself!” I thought, and my husband also said, “Know yourself!” I thought, and in the end, we both think about ourselves, so we pass by each other. I get that feeling, what do you think?
By the way, why does my husband say, “My growth has stopped since the day I lost my father”? Normal people don't think like that. Did your husband and father have such a special relationship? There must be a reason why my husband is so obsessed with his father. First, let me think about this, and I think that loosening my husband's heart will lead to a path of resolution.
Humans are actually not happy when they think about themselves. His Holiness the Dalai Lama, whom I spoke with the other day, also said, “Having a heart of compassion for others is the best way to make your heart happy.” I was saying that.
Please take this post as an opportunity to deepen your learning about life and be happy. Both the Buddha and his ancestors are watching over Rumiboo hoping for happiness. It will definitely get better.

Did you get the answer?
I hope to see you again.

Does your husband have any trauma in his heart?
If so, why don't you talk to a counselor?
Or are they just being spoiled?
Please discuss the painful feelings of Rumibo-san's heart with her husband.
Please hit them all.
If we can't get through all of our feelings with each other
It's a problem when it comes to living as a married couple.
Then they're just flatmates.
Is there also a disadvantage of remarriage?
Let's solve their problems together, and let's improve each other together.
Isn't that what a married couple is?

We vowed to be happy with each other, but it's hard for your husband to be in such a situation.

> I can't talk about my financial situation or the inside of my painful feelings of being stuck at work.
There is, and I'm worried. It would be nice if Rumiboo had someone nearby who could properly talk about her feelings, but her parents have already passed away, so it seems difficult. How about the person at work or your husband's mother?

Based on how your husband is right now, he did his best to take care of himself, and even if he told him about Rumiboo's suffering, I think that would make my feelings sink even more.
As recommended by other monks, consulting with counseling or psychosomatic medicine is probably one method. Please make sure you don't hold it alone.

Once the inside of the bucket is empty, men ask their partner to fill it up. When people are satisfied, they naturally overflow with gratitude. If you do that, you'll be able to talk about anything with Sarari.
It seems that Japanese people have fewer ways to express their love compared to people from overseas.
But as a human being itself, love is food for the heart. Your husband and you both need it.
Even if I want to rely on you, of course they won't stop by because you're unknowingly giving off a whoa aura, they won't even talk; rather, I'm afraid. (guess)
For now, I'm just going to do acts that make my lethargic husband happy (impossible!)
... (-.-) It's probably impossible, I'm tired from myself and I can't do it anymore. If you do it for free, they won't listen to what the human brain says, so for other good purposes (my own happiness), ♡ being kind to my husband is a good way to use my own brain. Today is November 22nd, Good Couple's Day.
I'll give you 10,000 yen, so please refer to the following.
Eyes ① Wear beautiful clothes
Ears ② Speak kind words
Nose ③ Wear perfume that men like
Tongue ④ Make your partner eat what they like
Body ⑤ physical service (I'll leave it up to your imagination)
Meaning ⑥ don't make you feel grumpy reassure
This is actually about throwing happiness (love) on all six senses of the other person.
There is no feast like this.
It was also a story about His Holiness the Dalai Lama, but if you do it with the feeling that you want to save others, you will naturally be saved yourself. Please save them, my husband for the time being, right?
First, please pour love from yourself.
If the feeling that you love the other person is conveyed, both your husband and you will have more heartfelt communication and conversation than talk. You should be able to talk about your worries in a relaxed manner.

Did your father pass away that made your husband feel blocked?
There may be other causes for not being able to look forward easily.
I understand how painful it is for you to look at such a husband. I'm worried.
Once, I received counseling, etc., and I think treatment is necessary.

It's so hard even for a married couple to understand everything. (Because men's and women's feelings and ways of thinking are fundamentally different)

Are you all right? There's something you own, don't you? Even if I hit my husband right now, it just makes it harder for me. Don't hold me alone!
Talk to someone you can forgive, such as a female friend, not your husband. It's important to exhale ◎

Please ask my husband to concentrate on his own treatment now. Let's wait for him to feel better.

You shouldn't overdo it and don't think too hard.
If you don't want to talk to people, you can talk to a temple you have a relationship with, or you can talk to here again (*^^*)