I build barriers when dealing with others, and I can't go so far as to become close.
That wasn't the case in the past, and I had friends, but I don't have anyone close enough to call me my friend at school now.
I don't think I hate being alone, but I sometimes feel lonely when I happen to, and maybe it's a mistake that I don't dislike being alone.
After all, should we force ourselves to make friends? It's lonely and painful.
that's right... Why do they build walls? shy? Don't you want to be asked too many things? Or do you really want to talk a lot?
I think the comfort of relationships differs from person to person. There are people who like relationships where they talk about everything (they want to know everything), and there are also people who don't want to talk much about themselves (private).
If you don't understand that, it's like stepping foot on the other person's heart, and relationships become tough.
I think they go well with each other~.
I like to cherish my alone time, so if I had a friend like that who would treat me when needed, that would be fine.
However, when I think about school life, I feel like it would be fun if I had friends to spend time with.
Why don't you expand your range of relationships to the extent that it doesn't get difficult for you?
Lower the height of the wall a little too.
Even if you don't talk much about yourself, by telling them that you're nodding or listening to the other person's story, a sense of camaraderie also comes out around you.
It's tough, but I don't think it's necessary to force yourself to make friends. However, if you think you're lonely and want friends you can talk to, try shortening the distance with your surroundings, even if you start by saying hello (^^)
Also, it would be nice if you had friends outside of school ♬