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Reason won't make the desire to die go away

It is no exaggeration to say that all realistic solutions have been tried.
I fought with my life.
I'm testing and thinking about solutions to life's problems more completely than people who happened to be lucky, people who just ride rails, people who have been blessed with parents, and idiots who don't think about anything, don't learn philosophy, physics, etc., and cut it off at the middle school level without learning anything.
Of course, I've heard advice like trash all over the place and textbook-level wording on low-dimensional morality hundreds of millions of times.
However, since those listening to trouble consultations, including friends and counselors, have never had that much trouble, there is nothing but bland advice.

That's enough already.
There isn't such a realistic solution, and if it's a dangerous situation, I'm testing any number of solutions.
People are constantly committing suicide because they don't like living in real time, and that's why there are tens of thousands of people who commit suicide every year.

Then, to the extent that they really go crazy thinking about suicide, people who wish to commit suicide make an effort to stop suicide voluntarily.
That's why I talk to the internet, hospitals, and monks out of desperation. Somehow I need someone to help me.
What comes back there is, “If it's hard, should I die? Cold words like “There's no point in living with an unhappy person.”

The unfortunate situation where I wanted to commit suicide did not change when I answered “no one, including all of humanity, has an answer to the proposition that it means to be alive in the first place, and you don't have one lol.”
If you commit suicide, death is a fear, and even if you live, you are struggling with your life.

The existence of humans is evil, and they've been fighting with Zoot and they say, “If it's hard, should I die?” It's rather natural to be able to say, “You'd better die right away.” I don't think there's any hope for humans.
So at the end of the day, I'm sticking to religion.
I asked so many questions that I wanted help. However, no matter what kind of good answer you get, it doesn't mean that reality will be solved, and the desire to die will not go away with reason.
Rather, I was about to dislike Buddhism because of disgusting words containing personality denial that I received from a monk.
Because even if you go on a rant, it's OK because I'm training! If you use logic like that, it's OK to harm others! Something like that goes through.

Well, at the end of the day, I want to stick to religion, and I want to live a fun life somehow.
I need some help. I want you to share your wisdom. It might not make sense, but we're close to the limit.

4 Zen Responses

Thank you very much for your relationship

Hello Nietzsche. There was a little time left since the previous question, but you were struggling with the reality of being alone. And you've been seriously worried all this time, haven't you?

> Reason won't make the desire to die go away

I think you're right. The “feeling” called the “desire to die” is also not “me,” so it is not something that can be controlled with reason.
Rather than struggling with “erasing the desire to die,” let's clearly look at “the desire to die is not me itself.”

Now, just as reason doesn't make our emotions the way we want, logic doesn't save us. Logic may rather be something that comes to mind after being saved. However, it is also a reality that the way to get closer to salvation is logical.

Nietzsche has been really troubled so far. What kind of trouble did you have at that time?

“Why should I worry about this?”

Wasn't that a way to worry? Didn't you treat that trouble as something unfair that shouldn't have been brought to you?

Why do we have to worry about our worries instead of worrying head-on? Aren't you worried about that?

Studying Buddhism doesn't mean you'll make more money, cure your illness, or make a lot of friends.
So what is salvation and opposition in Buddhism?

It's about being able to accept my worries as my own and get rid of them. If this is a relationship I have, I can cherish my worries.

We are the ones who worry about wanting to do things that don't turn out the way we want, so our worries won't go away.
Let's worry together.

It's not a cheap meaning of life given to someone, it's not a void where there is no meaning to life, and let's be saved together, illuminated by the truth that “there is” infinite possibility only because there is “no” fixed or tangible thing, etc., and let's be saved together.

Thank you for always listening to my heartfelt cries.

The purpose of life for you

I read it. I read that you have fought in your own life through repeated struggles until now, and that you have continued to suffer without being able to find answers.
I think the reason you have suffered and been troubled by so much deep suffering is probably because you are living in search of that answer in your life.
Since you have suffered so deeply, you have experienced various scenes and situations firsthand, and the seeds and opportunities to find answers have been brought.
The more sad you are, the more you can understand the sorrow and suffering, and it is an opportunity for you to find answers commensurate with it.
I think the purpose of your life is probably to be freed from those worries and suffering and to have a happy personality without any worries.
That path is exactly the Buddha's path that Buddhism aims for. It is said that Buddhism has 84,000 Dharma, and in other words, there is a path for forming a perfect personality by becoming a Buddha according to the circumstances of various people.
There's probably a path that's right for you.
And the Buddha shows us the way to guide everything correctly.
In that path, I think you will find that path in your own life, or that you will be able to complete that life while being shown the way by a Buddha or monk.
Your worries and suffering may be a series of hardships on a cliffside for you, but you will surely be able to find the path you seek while studying Buddhism.

Please take a break first and calm your mind.
Also, please keep in touch with the Buddhist teachings right in front of you.

You will definitely be able to meet the path and way of life you are aiming for, and you will also be able to meet many of your compatriots along the way.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha that you will learn and work hard on Buddhism in the future, be saved from suffering and sorrow, and form a peaceful personality.

Please let me know how you feel again.

I think there are probably many people in the world who feel the same kind of suffering as you.
If possible, why don't you write about how you respond to what kind of events on a daily basis on your blog or Twitter etc.
It may help someone live, or it may help you.
Each person has something they are good at and something they are not good at. There's probably an extreme difference between you, so if possible, I think about leaving what you're not good at to someone else, and then taking on what you're good at and working for the job. Make sure the people around you understand your characteristics.
Or look for a workplace where you can understand it.

Toward an examination of the essence of life and death reincarnation

Mr. Nietzsche

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

You seem to be falling into a bit of nihilism and pessimism...

Anyway, we don't just have this life as a problem.

After all, the problem is the state of reincarnation as a whole, which has repeated reincarnation through this hesitation and suffering over and over again.

We must look at past lives, this world, and the next and third generations, and think about how we should be in order to achieve enlightenment and nirvana.

By all means, I hope you can also consider the essence of life and death reincarnation.

I definitely recommend reading the following three books to consider the essence of life and death reincarnation.

“Tibetan Book of Life and Death” (Master Sogyal Rinpoche/Kodansha)

“The Gelk School Edition: The Tibetan Book of the Dead” (Master Yanchengaro, Gakken Bunko)

“Secret Meeting Tantra Overview” (translated by Mr. Koichi Hiraoka, Hozokan)

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho