Is it OK to be alive?

As a human being, it's painful when your own feelings are the top priority.
I want things to turn out the way I want them to, but they don't turn out the way I want them to.
Let's let go of our expectations that we want them to be happy.
When it comes to cars, it's like stepping on the accelerator uselessly in a neutral state, so please refrain from wasting your thoughts because they are toxic to your body.
(^o^) Even if you seem to care about the other person,
Maybe you're filled with your own feelings.

Let's start by not stepping on the “My Consciousness Accelerator.”
Me something me
My mine's
I am I
Oh, me oh, me...
Let's ease “my consciousness” (^o^)

◎ The difference between an enlightened person and a lost person
People who bring a sense of self to everyday events and make them me me are lost people.
“I'm at a loss about carrying myself and testifying to all laws” Dogen
I look at things with a focus on images and consciousness, so whether I watch the news or interact with my children, I add my opinions all over my head.
I don't take him as he is, and I'm looking at him with color as information through filters. Why do we have fun times and dark times when we spend the same day?
That's because I'm watching things with dark thoughts on top of the events.

So, when it comes to how do enlightened people and people who have little trouble look at things
I'm looking at the events and the reality in front of me “without thinking too much.”
It doesn't take “My Opinion” as the main character.
They live a life where “only events” are the main characters.
For example, when you have eyes with people, etc., “Doesn't this person think bad about me?” Humans will not be able to encounter the real thing if they put their own thoughts on the other person.
Take a look at what's in front of you.
I'm not complaining or speaking ill of you on your desk, smartphone, PC, or anything. Right?
On a regular basis, it has become a habit not to accept the thing itself and to attach some kind of option of thought to it. Let's cut it.
Your challenge is to accept the child as it is.
If you don't attach a bad image that comes from within you to your opponent as an option, it's very easy on your mind. (^o^)

Good evening.
We're human because we're not good enough.
If that's enough, it's Buddha.

Seen from the Buddha's point of view, we are the object of salvation.
They are always watching, saying, “I must save you...”
That's why you can stay alive.

The Buddha is praying for us to stay alive.
I always think like that in my life.

I felt the same way as you, and I have been living my life over and over again.
Even though I had faith, I thought that way over and over again.
But at the same time,
It was also a moment where I thought it was good to have faith.

Living means
I think there are probably more difficult things than fun things.
The reason (proverb) was revealed 2,500 years ago by Shakyamuni.

so...
There were times when I really wanted to die too.
Or rather, it is more accurate to say that I wanted to disappear and disappear.
But I didn't have the courage to die.
In the end, this life was missed; it was unfortunate.
It was thanks to my faith that they didn't give me the courage to die.
I think that is the “blessing” I received from the Buddha.

Correcting mistakes... it's not that easy, I'm sure.
If “death” is an option because you can't do that,
That is far from correcting mistakes.
Far from being right, you could end up cutting off the right path yourself.

I can't come to a conclusion so quickly in a life that is probably still going on.
It's a life full of twists and turns.
But as you wrote at the beginning,
It makes me want to live a laughing life,
I don't think today will last forever when you don't actually laugh.

Think of “laughter” as a gift from the Buddha.
When you're laughing, Buddha smiles too.
and your sorrow,
Please also try to convince yourself that there are people who really understand it.
What directed me to write here
I feel that it is due to Buddha power...

You never have to work hard.
When it's tough, it's okay to be able to stop the whole time...

There are famous celebrities who use these words to catch laughter, but not only is it a comedy story,
I'm trying to be aware, and I think these words are getting their point.

As Master Tange also wrote, sometimes we turn our attention only in a negative direction, and we become depressed like a spiral.

Try changing your perspective a little bit.

Are they really all negative things?

Even if it's the same thing, isn't there anything that can be taken as a plus?

If something is missing, doesn't it mean that there are also things that are lacking?

I'm guessing that you have the feeling that you're sinking to the bottom of the dark,
There is a bright light shining somewhere.

I would like you to find that light.

Takasama.
My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.
Even from the short sentence, I felt a sense of desperation that they were thinking about something, and I felt like my heart was tightened by what happened.

This may seem like an optimistic opinion, but when I saw your question, I felt that I was already halfway there.

We can't see ourselves very well. A form of self that you seem to understand but don't understand, that you seem to be able to see but aren't.
However, Taka realized that it was “full of missing things,” and bowed her head, saying “I'm sorry for the child,” and asked, “What should I do to correct my mistakes?” I think it's great that we've made it this far.

It may be difficult to write anything specific. There are many people, including me, who say it's fine if you contact me directly. Also, there may be other consultation places or people around you who can help you.

“I know I'm wrong,” let's move forward in a better direction by other methods.

　Taka-san, I'm disappointed. Up until recently, I actually still think the same thing. The question was asked earlier. Too bad!
I want to spend every day laughing. But people around me won't let me do that. it's painful. A world where there are no right answers. Even though I meant to say the right thing, people around me agree with the opinions expressed by my superiors. Later behind the scenes, “It's the same as how you feel.” No matter what they say, it's too late, “say it then.” It also makes me want to say that.
But as I get involved with so many people, people in that community understand me. There was one thing I noticed at that time. It's not bad to join another community and be surrounded by people who understand you rather than trying to gain understanding from a community of people who don't understand you.
Bottom line, it's fine to run away from bad things, but before that, why don't you do it after seeing another world?

Taka-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

An urgent problem... I was asked a question about my son earlier, but I know it's Taka-sama...

Anyway, I think this is a time when people should actively seek help, cooperation, and support without being too carried away by themselves, and not trying to work hard alone.

We have a wide range of contacts for relatives, friends, acquaintances, and government, private sector, and third party organizations, so we can consult with you without worrying about it alone. There are limits to hasunoha alone, so it would be a good idea to actually contact Hasunoha's registered temples in advance and ask directly for a consultation, and there are also temples that are actively working on family issues as shown below.

Teranet EN
http://www.teranet-en.org/index.htm

Good temple.jp
A collection of links to temples that have counseling centers for various problems
http://e-tera.jp/kakekomi/kakekomi.html

You may also be able to ask more specific solutions from these temples, and based on your experience so far, I think they can also introduce appropriate destinations.

By all means, I recommend that you actually visit here for a consultation.

Also, when it comes to choosing your own death and asking if you can really get away from lost suffering, or if you can feel comfortable, I'm very skeptical. Rather, in terms of Buddhism, I believe that people will lose their way and suffer even more. It must be said that this is, after all, a mistake.

Anyway, now that I've realized that there are so many things that are lacking, it really is an opportunity. Isn't it time to look forward and move forward so as not to make the same mistakes over and over again?

I'm really sorry for the mundane expression, but “there is no night without dawn” and “there is no unstoppable rain.” After overcoming these difficulties, I am sure that days where we can live laughing await us.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho