I want to disappear cleanly from this world

In Buddhism, it is basically thought that even if people who are unaware or have worries remain die, they will be reincarnated into a different living thing (reincarnation).
If you want to completely disappear from this world (lost world), you need to get rid of your worries, that is, enlightenment.
Unaware, we repeat our confusion (wrong idea) → karma (wrong action) → suffering (suffering, dissatisfaction) → misunderstanding (confusion) again because it is painful.
An infinite loop of confusion → karma → suffering → perplexity → karma → suffering...
In order to stop this,
It is necessary to practice precepts (lifestyle practice), meditation (meditation practice for concentrating the mind), and observation (meditation practice of understanding the truth).
Nonetheless, it is quite a difficult ascetic practice on modern Earth.
So, for now, there is also a way to call it “Namu Amida Buddha” and hope that after death (in the next life), you can pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise (an environment built by Amitabha Buddha that makes it easy to understand).
All you have to do is say Namu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu in your mouth and pray for a remortal paradise.
So, the sect called the Jodo sect thinks that if you pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise and realize it in the next life, you will surely be freed from reincarnation of magic → karma → suffering.

I read it. You're feeling that living is very difficult right now. Even if you look around you, do you feel that there are so many things going on in your life right now that it's very troublesome?
I understand how you feel.
Well, living a little bit can be very troublesome, and there are times when you are swayed by various things and people. Suddenly, there are times when I want it to just disappear like this.
I think society is so intricately entangled that we are in a situation where we have to do a lot of things, and I also think that I often wonder what I live for, what goals I have to live for, and why I have to do such troublesome and complicated things.

Nonetheless, we are living now amidst many blessings amidst mysterious encounters. And the time allotted in this world is limited. I think it's troublesome, but the time we have been given is limited. Among them, I am living while searching for what I am living for. It will also cause a lot of confusion and confusion. Among them, you will learn and learn while feeling and experiencing various relationships and events in your future life.
Among them, you'll also find things that are really important to you. Or you may have a very painful and painful experience. I think there are many things that make me feel desperate about myself and my life because of that.
On the other hand, isn't it possible to find simpler answers to things that you think you have to do now in fact over time?
The fact that people live is actually not difficult; it may be something simpler.

That's because the relationship I have now had a strange encounter was miraculously given.

Please try facing what you have now and what you can do now with an honest feeling rather than thinking too hard about it.

I sincerely pray that you will be blessed with wonderful relationships from now on, live a rich life, and grow healthily while experiencing and learning one by one.

And I support you from the bottom of my heart.

I read your consultation. That feeling of worry, anxiety, doubt, dissatisfaction, etc. is very important.

This is because such things are the point of contact between the truth and us. The truth is taking that form and is beginning to work for us. In other words, the desire to “live a truly satisfied life” probably comes into play where it collides with reality that is not the case.

I think your thoughts are linked to the depression of Buddha Shakyamuni before becoming a monk.

> I think it would be nice if I could somehow cut everything off in this life. I would be happy if I could completely disappear from this world.

This probably has something in common with the Buddhist worldview, which sees this world as a lost world.

But Shakyamuni's eyes are harsher and more realistic. Shakyamuni thoroughly observed that the reason this world is at a loss is because he himself is lost. When did Shakyamuni finally reach

The annihilation of life, old age, and death (see 12 Lucky Signs)

That's it. Since ignorance, which is our fundamental affliction, is destroyed, life and death, which are our specific forms of suffering, will perish. This is not an extinction of old age as a physiological phenomenon. Nor does it mean that you won't be born. As long as people are people, they are born, old, and die. In other words, what Buddhism poses a problem is the extinction of consciousness (state of mind) whose content is ignorance and craving that make life and death painful.

It's probably not about becoming a robot person, nor about becoming an overly virtuous person.

It means that you, as you, take on your doubts and live. There is real satisfaction there.

We weren't born to want to, but unless we accept our own lives, our past and future from there until now will all be empty and unfulfilled. There's absolutely no need to be thankful.

However, unless you walk away from the fact that you were born as a human being in this day and age, you'll just get lost in the midst of confusion. This is because neither the beginning nor the destination have been decided.

It's like a picture story or nonsense, but even so, the fact that you're alive now inevitably asks, “What are you going to do? What would you like to do?” It's starting to work. It's about how to respond to that.

Living by pretending to understand “there's no point anyway” even though you don't even understand it only deepens your hesitation.
Because we can't be thorough about anything, we take our doubts and do what we can.

Aki

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

The way to break free from this cycle of hesitation and suffering is truly Buddhism.

The reason we reincarnate in this world is because of ignorance and work caused by ignorance and worry.

Let's break this evil reincarnation together.

But if you don't do anything, nothing will change. Once again, it becomes a place where I keep wandering around in reincarnation.

It is a place where I want to move towards a good outcome called enlightenment due to a pure good cause (cause and condition).

However, if you continue for a while, you will begin to want to return to this reincarnation in a different sense.

and to save everyone.

If you practice Buddhism, you will eventually be able to save everyone.

Let's work hard together.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho