I don't know what to do

First, I wonder if my current job is the path I chose “because I like it”...?
If not, there's probably no need to force yourself to “work hard.” It's a job that isn't for you... (maybe). Let's take a break for a while and think about “changing jobs.”
If it's a job you like and chose, but you're having a “hard time” and are struggling with relationships, consider choosing to change your workplace.
Either way, it's more important not to be too bound by your “current job.”
Everyone has a “wall or turning point” several times in their lives. You're probably in that time right now...
Anyway, don't think “deeply” about the future... Please rest your body. (Note, there is also a possibility of depression, so it might be a good idea to be examined by a psychosomatic medicine doctor...)
Finally, I will give you Ikkyu-san's words... “Don't worry, it's okay, it will work out.”
It's pretty good... as long as I'm alive... Gassho

Happy new year. My name is Kameyama Junshi.

Do you know the cause of the pain? Every thing has a cause and effect. If you have a hard time, there is always something that is making you feel bad. However, this cause does not necessarily cause painful things depending on the person. In other words, events happening right in front of you can cause painful things for some people, and they don't cause painful things for others. So let's first clarify the cause of the pain. And let's consider whether the cause causes pain for everyone. Maybe your own obsession (for example, wanting to be perfect at work) is hurting you. Of course, there are cases where there is a cause that causes pain for everyone. (Black companies are like that, aren't they?) In that way, once the cause has been clarified, let's think about how to eliminate it or how it can be made positive. Also, it doesn't matter at all if you talk to Hasunoha. Rather, please use this site to get rid of your current painful feelings.

These are my answers. We look forward to hearing from you again.

I read your question.

You must have had a hard time at work. I guess my mind and body were exhausted due to conflicting feelings...

73 has strongly blamed herself for “running away from work.” Certainly, there are times in life when you have to get fired up and work hard.
But alas, I can't keep trying beyond my limits.
An acquaintance of mine once told me this. “I worked hard until I was 40, thinking it was for the company. However, when I turned 40, my health deteriorated and I was hospitalized. However, the company doesn't do anything for me. It's a story about “I realized that I have to protect myself.”

In this way, even if you continue to work hard beyond your limits, you always have to pay a big price somewhere. And 73 has to keep up with her own body for the rest of her life.
If 73's body isn't moving right now, I think my body is unknowingly putting the brakes on.
It's not an escape; it's an “evacuation” to protect oneself. Please be aware of that first. If you do that, you will be able to escape the conflicting conflicts in your heart. Mental illness also manifests itself in the body. When the mind stabilizes, the body will surely stabilize as well.

Nothing is going well right now, and it's probably full of impatience.
However, not everything is going to get better all at once. It's important to sort out the problems one by one.
The first thing to do is acknowledge your current situation. It's about acknowledging that it's not an “escape,” but an “evacuation,” and I'll take care of them. Please rest your mind and heal yourself thoroughly.
Wouldn't it be too late for your physical recovery or return to work from there?
It's slow without being impatient! If you don't know who to ask for help, try talking about anything again.
If there's nothing you can do about it, please consult an expert, such as going to a psychiatrist!

I would be grateful if you could use anything as a reference.

Thank you 73 for your consultation.

Each of the previous monks may have answered,
What is your current situation of not being able to get out of your futon
Your body shouldn't move any more! I think that's the reaction
I don't think I'll force myself to go to work.
I think it's the body's defensive response that if you overdo it, it's going to be even worse.
I don't think we should ever be impatient.
and
Since 73 is said to be a beauty counselor
Why did you want to get that job as a beauty counselor in the first place
I want to make people beautiful, I want to shine, I want to make them smile, I want to make them lively
Please try to remember what the original purpose was, etc.
How would you like to contribute by using a beauty counselor?
If you feel it deeply and think that your current job is different...
I don't think I'll be particular about my current job.
How to do what you really want to do, how to make people smile,
Being my own beauty counselor is rewarding!
or another method, etc., one's own mind, feeling, atmosphere, etc.
Please cherish it.
What if you have trouble grasping your own rewards, senses, etc.
Please get counseling or coaching
Please talk to the monk etc.
Please don't worry too much alone.
Thank you for taking the time to read.
FYI
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