To sell the body or not

When I happened to be searching, I arrived at this site, so I thought there might be some kind of connection, and I would like to discuss it with you.
My family has been separated since six years ago due to my father having an affair.
(My father continues to cheat with his partner even now)
Also, my father took out half of the 4 million that had been saved as child support for me and my sister without permission.

Currently, I live with my sister, and my mother, and my father transfers about 300,000 yen, including rent and minimum food expenses, once a month. (That amount was decided by the parents through the Family Court as a condition for separation)
My father lives in the same district, and sometimes he only comes to show his face once every few months.
If you have 300,000 yen a month, three people can live at a minimum, but you can't afford it, and since you only have half of the child support left, you only have enough money for one person to go on to college.
I'm about to go to private school due to the subject I want to study, so if I go on to college, my sister will get a scholarship.

Also, my parents were in a love marriage.
When I was in elementary school, my father had an affair and we started getting into trouble, and I think it's probably because I don't have a father, but I think somewhere that my father abandoned my mother the whole time. Also, it seems that the mother is close to the limit due to the fact that she currently cannot afford it in terms of money, the presence of a father, and the future of her children.

Meanwhile, it was decided that I would fail the university entrance exam and take the plunge. As for Ronin, he agreed that he would repay the exam fee for this year (120,000) and bear the full amount of the exam fee for next year.
I've been working part-time since I was in high school, and I plan to continue living as a ronin, but it's tough to earn that amount of money while studying.

Personally, if I were to be a ronin for the first year, I'd like to put in living expenses, but I just want to avoid neglecting my studies and going back and forth.
However, I can see that it is better to earn as much as possible now that I can't even save for my sister's tuition fees or my mother's old age.

So I'm thinking about selling my body for close to 300,000 yen a month for this year alone.
I'm still a virgin, so I can get that amount by having sex about 4 times a month, but I'm not good at sexual interactions myself. (So I've been a virgin until now)
However, if you sell your body, you can sell at a higher price when you are young, and if you only have that, your mother and sister can live a comfortable life without suffering.
But I want to make my mom and sister feel comfortable.

I don't know what to do anymore.
Please give me some advice.

5 Zen Responses

Beware of infectious diseases

There are also people who go on to college even in welfare households.
If your life is really difficult, please talk to the government office.
You can get welfare (you can get living expenses from the government office and medical expenses will also be free), such as your mother's old age, so don't worry too much.
If possible, I think it would be better for not only my sister but also for yourself to use the scholarship.
I also went to college on a scholarship.
Once you get a job, you can fully repay your scholarship.

So, I don't know what “selling a body” means, but if it's a legal method rather than an illegal method, there's no right for others to say otherwise.
However, now that the number of foreign tourists is increasing, the risk of infectious diseases is probably also increasing.
If you harm your health, it will go to the bottom of the matter, so I think you should be careful about that.

Let's stop selling our bodies

I read it.
You, your sister, and your mother all have a future ahead of you.
Let's stop selling our bodies. You may have been driven into thinking like that, but such a choice is not desirable.
Actively receive support from local government consultation desks, support groups, etc.
And let's go on to college yourself and learn a lot.
It seems that the scholarship system is also being reviewed, so I think there are ways not to repay, and there are also methods that require minimal repayment. Please help both you and your sister learn and grow while actively using the scholarship system.
The future for you and your sister is about to open up. Furthermore, they can continue to play an active role in various fields and societies.
There are probably many things you think about your father, but what is important now is the lives and future of you, your sister, and your mother.

I sincerely pray that the future lives of you, your sister, and your mother will be stable, and that everyone will learn and grow, and that every day will be rich and fulfilling.
And I wholeheartedly support you, your sister, and your mother.
You're definitely not alone.

Please make firm choices about your own life and move on.

Don't be desperate

I also had a younger sister, but both my sister and I were at private universities, so my sister was on a scholarship. It's true that sex work makes money, and you can earn money when you're young, but what you're thinking seems to be illegal, and it's also dangerous. They may be thinking about daddy activities that are popular recently, but there is no change that it is essentially illegal, just paraphrasing old assisted dating and further paraphrasing prostitution. Even when it comes to legal sex work such as sex work, such as sex work, it's like a gray zone, and it's a tough job. I don't think you can bear it, and I don't want you to do it. I don't think it's possible because the conditions for receiving welfare are strict, there are savings for child support, and there is support for you. Since welfare cannot be received if you have savings, life insurance, or a car, you can only receive it after making inquiries to relatives etc. and confirming that there is no assistance. Why don't you think about going to college with child support first? That's because it's up to my sister to decide whether or not to go to college with a scholarship. I have three siblings, but I went to college and became a monk, my younger sister went to college and got a job, and my youngest sister graduated from high school but became a national civil servant. Life is something that can be managed. Don't just become desperate and abandon yourself.

That job is too risky.

That's why I can earn that much.
If something happens and you can't take the exam or go on to college,
It's putting the cart before the horse.

I'm from home, so
I can't believe I became a monk when I was in high school
I had absolutely no idea.

I don't know my future life at all.
Stick to the rails you've decided
I must have thought it would be to achieve that
The only act where there is a possibility of stepping on that rail
I want it to stop.

You can work part-time even if you go to college, and there are also people who take a one-year leave of absence immediately after entering college and earn solid tuition and living expenses by working part-time for 1 year.
Besides, I don't think there will be any problems with your mother's old age if you and your sister work.
So I think it's better not to sell yourself easily. That's because of that, you may not be able to be with someone you like in the future.

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