Let me tell you about the day I first guessed my sad premonition.
Nice to meet you.
I'm naturally inspired, so I've had no shortage of strange experiences from an early age.
Every year, there are events that I remember when it comes to this season.
This is a story about a “sad prediction” that I experienced for the first time in my life when I was still in the second grade of elementary school at the time.
My uncle's family, who is my grandmother's cousin, lives next to my house.
The older brother and older sister in that house were also kind, and they played with our naughty brother and sister.
My older brother, who used to be called “Kazuki-chan,” played with him every day.
I finished my homework at Meng speed, clutched my snacks, ran out to play with my brother and sister on good terms, and played until 18:00 when my mother, a nurse, came home after work.
Kazuo was also the one who taught me how to ride a bicycle.
Fireworks, canning, tag, soccer... fishing, catching killifish, barbecuing, yakiimo... in the creek below my house.
Happy and joyful memories are still an important amulet.
My brother and sister loved Kazuo.
But the sad farewell was sudden.
On that day, I always played with my brother, sister, and brother, and my mother came home... it was a scene all the time.
However, when I saw Kazuki-chan illuminated by a beautiful sunset that day, I suddenly became sad and unknowingly felt that Kazuki-chan would go to a distant world where I would never meet him again... and I couldn't leave Kazuo.
“Your brother isn't going anywhere, is he? Bookmark is going to the hospital with her mom tomorrow, right? I'll play when I get home.”
... Yes, Kazuo, who promised to laugh and play gently, took his own life from the middle of the night to the morning of that day.
I had a dream that day while undergoing an electroencephalogram test to treat my epilepsy.
When I was in a completely dark space, Kazuo was there.
They smile sadly, and when they wave their hands, they disappear into the light.
I saw Kazuo when I left the house, and my mother, who is usually kind, urges me to the bus stop in a strong tone.
When I heard it later, it seems that Kazuo, whom I met at that time, realized that he was not from this world.
When I think about the time he died... that was...
When the test was over, my grandmother contacted me, and my mother, who came back, told me that Kazuo's life was over.
Even now, there is news when someone dies, and I have predictive dreams.
You can't change a person's lifespan, no matter how much you love them.
That reminds me of this time of year.
Three days from now will be the anniversary of Kazuo's death