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People around me are frustrated...

I have a disease called cerebrospinal fluid penia, and I live an uneasy everyday life suffering from various symptoms.

I'm probably immature, but people around me envy me.
Even if I just have a healthy body, I wish I could be more grateful.
Even when I meet my friends, that kind of thing is bad about my boyfriend. I want to eat something better. It's kind of frustrating, etc.
If I had a healthy body, that might have been the case,

I try not to worry about “people are people,” but it's kind of frustrating.
There are a lot of difficult people around me, so when I think about those people, I'm kind of angry at the words and actions of those people.
Everyone seems selfish.

I don't think I should feel that my feelings are cloudy.
Even though I'm doing an ascetic practice called being sick.
I want to feel peaceful like a monk.
What should I do to feel calm without being irritated by those around me...

4 Zen Responses

Why don't you believe in the Buddha?

Satomi

Nice to meet you, my name is Inoue Hirofumi from hasunoha.

I read your question.

Well, it is said that people around you get frustrated, but of course there are times when even monks get frustrated.
By no means can you always have a calm face like a Buddha.

However, if there is a difference between monks and those who aren't, we monks always worship Buddha.
Worship, in other words, is the feeling that “I want to be like the Buddha myself.”

Speaking of which, I have a heart that wishes to attain enlightenment.
This heart comforts and encourages me.

While we are angry, jealous, and sad, the awareness that one day we will always approach a heart like a Buddha supports us.

It would be a waste for Satomi to hurt herself by getting frustrated.

Please believe in the Buddha and hope to be the same for yourself.
I'm sure you'll be able to see a different way of life than before.

“Thank you”

Satomi-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi.

Cerebrospinal fluid penia... it's a difficult and intractable disease... definitive treatment has not yet been established, and insurance coverage for treatment is difficult... I'm very worried...

Even under such circumstances, I am truly grateful that you are spending your time without forgetting the feeling of “gratitude.”

In particular, I am disgusted by “selfish” people like Satomi, and understanding that nothing is so “natural” is really important in order not to waste your life. I truly want to cherish this “thank you” life as much as possible.

Actually, the etymology of “thankful” comes from Buddhism. Literally, “having” is “difficult,” and is rarely rare, but being able to receive life as a human being, and even being able to encounter the teachings of the Buddha, derives from the fact that it is actually difficult, and it is an expression of what is important, valuable, and even more thankful, and currently, it has become an exclusively “thank you” that generally expresses gratitude.

The origin of this is in the metaphor “Blind Kame Driftwood,” where the Buddha actually told an anecdote.

As a metaphor for being born to his disciple Anan, an invisible turtle that lives in the endless expanse of the sea, that turtle rises to the surface of the water and comes out once every 100 years, but there is a driftwood floating in the ocean, and there is just a small hole in that driftwood that the turtle's head can pass through, and by chance, when that turtle rises to the surface of the water, it just so happens that when that turtle rises to the surface of the water, its head is spotted in that driftwood and that small hole You said that it is even more difficult to live as a human being even more difficult than such a thing is possible.

Of course, even if you are born as a human being, there is Buddhism, and when it comes to opportunities to encounter that Buddhism, it is even more difficult, and you have to be even more grateful.

As Mr. Inoue said, I would be very happy if you would take this opportunity to have faith in and learn about Buddhism as one of those opportunities.

This time, I came across Hasunoha, asked questions, and if you thought “thank you” for your answers, and if you hit “thank you”, then I would really like to say “thank you.”

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

I salute you

Satomi-sama
My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.

Cerebral myelopenia... I didn't know the details, but I looked it up because of this incident. I know you have a serious illness and are having a very difficult day.

Michael J. Fox is a person who has encountered an intractable disease and is the leading actor in the movie “Back to the Future” series. In the midst of his peak as a movie actor, he developed juvenile Parkinson's disease and continued to live a desperate life.
However, he found hope in his illness, and an autobiography called “Lucky Man” was published. He called himself a “lucky man” when he had an intractable illness.

Satomi said, “I'm doing an ascetic practice called being sick.” I think it's great that you accept it that way. I don't think that's what everyone thinks. I salute Satomi.

Michael J. Fox also went through a difficult period of training and probably arrived at the state of mind that followed. The ascetic practice is hard and painful. You might get frustrated and angry at times. But I think that thought now will be a great source of food for Satomi in the future.

Please follow Satomi's path of ascetic practice step by step.

OH ~ My Rules Lulu Lulu ~ ♪

When I was angry, I was studying what the cause was.
In a nutshell, it's “imposing your own rules.”
Expectations are high, ideals are high, and they are imposing themselves, my rules, and My World on their opponents.
The cause of my anger is that I have pre-set my rules all over the place.
It would be nice if my rules were gone.
My rules make me smaller.
People who have their own rules have the illusion that those rules apply to their opponents and that they are rules rules.
It's a bit embarrassing that both you and I made a lot of My Rules ♪ before you knew it, and we were demanding them from people.
For now, let's sing Lulu Lulu ~ ♪
everyone is laughing lulululu~
Puppies are laughing too~ the weather is nice today~
Please sing when your illness is difficult, I hope you get better.
The following is more in-depth.
Read the following story without further ado, and it's a pun kampung that you don't understand when reading it on a smartphone.
Read it slowly, and the content will leave tears, collars, and sleeves for those who understand it.
If you say it in the style of Zen,
“What I think is my partner and I'm having trouble with is my own heart”
“I don't have an opponent. All my life, only my own affairs”
“The object you think your partner hates and is frustrated with is your own thoughts that have nothing to do with the other person's actual existence.”
“What you call your partner is a false image within yourself”
“To get rid of anger against your partner, know that your inner partner is what you do.”
Q “So how does anger go away?”
A “If you know you're doing everything, you won't do stupid things that hurt yourself.”
You should really take care of you.
To really take care of yourself means not to be angry either for yourself or for your partner.
When you don't have anger, you realize that you were alone in your anger.
Stopping getting angry, making them stop getting angry means keeping them quiet until their own sense of falsehood disappears.
When I stop dealing with my inner feelings, I'm always quiet.
There is no other teaching like this. It's a miracle that saved me when I was so angry that my mentor gave me.
Thanks, I'm awake, I'm in tears, and I moisturize my sleeves.