I've withdrawn my retirement request, but...

If you have the decisiveness to be able to withdraw your retirement, let's go ahead and withdraw your withdrawal once again.

“When you don't want to be recognized by your seniors,” I think your seniors will naturally recognize you at that time.

I don't know what kind of job it is, but why don't you think about what you're working for?

No matter how you think about it, it's not a job for seniors to like, is it?

Isn't the purpose of your job to maintain good relationships with customers, business partners, etc., and generate profits for your company? I think it is difficult to change the way you look at your seniors and others around you only by putting all your effort into achieving and maintaining the purpose of your original job.

I myself never got along with my direct supervisor when I used to work, and for a moment I thought, “I wonder if it will be easier when I die.” When I thought about it calmly, I thought too much about my relationship with that boss, neglected my original work, and it became a negative spiral where my relationship with my boss worsened.

First, I'd like you to think about making sure you do the work in front of you carefully, and then rebuild yourself from there. If you listen to what that senior says calmly, there may also be elements that make you think “I see.”

Why don't you try putting the manzai artist Kiyoshi Nishikawa's quote “Start Small, Steady,” for a while? I'm sure someone, not just my seniors, will be watching that attitude. Please do your best!

Gassho

(^▽^) Simply, if the relationship between you and your boss is bad, then you surrender.
Remember, “Communication continues as long as it doesn't improve.”
Even in a relaxed state, communication isn't over until relationships improve.
In Zen, it is said that “unnecessary pride” should be fed even to dogs. Dogs don't eat it either. I don't need one either. That's the biggest cause that's bothering you, and this is cheap pride.
If you get hurt by being called cheap pride, it's really cheap. That's what you should throw away.
But can't you just throw it away? So let's think about it this way.
Even dogs show their bellies. If you show your belly, your opponent won't bite you any more.
It's not a loss. It's about acknowledging the other person. That is the rule for “coexistence.” By surrendering, you are recognized as a member of the organization. From your senpai's point of view, you might be “namaiki,” “that's ridiculous,” and “futeboo.”
Employee apps loved by bosses in any industry
Humble Man Yes-Man is a Mangatsman Yoishoman who listens to me.
Let's remember and install it with “Keiki Gayoi.”
Your energy right now may be going in the opposite direction.
Throw away the old app called Pride and relaunch it.
It's good for me. There are still decades to go.
Whether or not you can do that is within “work.”
It's also a dividing line between what you can and can't get ahead in your career.
“Senpai. I reflected on myself, which I had been excited about. I will change my heart and do my best for the company. I love my job. Please let me do the work.” I'm going to tell you that.
If it were the boss of Do S, I think he would drive him away there, but I think that is also degassing the opponent.

My name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an, Snow Bear.
You're in a very complicated situation, and it looks like you're in trouble.

I felt that both the reason I wanted to quit the company and the reason I withdrew my resignation were backwards or rather negative. That's not to say that's bad, and I feel a little worried about continuing to work in a situation where I'm so tired and caught up.

Also, it is only right that seniors get angry when they withdraw their retirement. But I think the reason I get that angry is because I'm seriously dealing with Snow Bear. If I'm going to keep working, I have no choice but to endure that anger for a while.

What does Snow Bear want to do?
Do you want to stay with the company? do you want to quit? If you look into your own heart, the answer is probably generally decided.

If you continue, try as hard as possible, but if you are about to exceed the limit, please keep in the corner of your head that you have the courage to retreat. Even if Snow Bear breaks down, the company, branch manager, boss, and seniors won't fix it.

Snow bear

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

“Indecision” can sometimes lead to major failure. Therefore, we want to avoid making easy and shallow decisions as much as possible.

Regarding “indecisiveness,” we have recently also dealt with the following questions.

Question “The agitation and sermons around me are infuriating”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/383

Also, if there is a suspicion of power harassment, I think the humble answers to the following questions will also be helpful.

Question “I'm depressed due to relationships, but I can't decide to take a leave of absence”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/381

Now, if your retirement is approved once, accepted, and then withdrawn, you can probably think that the company needs Snow Bear.

Why don't you think this is a little better, be even more spoiled, talk honestly about this senior, talk to your boss or branch manager, and ask for department changes, boss changes, secondments, etc. at this time.

If it seems impossible to speak honestly, I think other reasons are fine, such as wanting to advance my career, learning a new job, or wanting time to study to obtain relevant qualifications.

Alternatively, it's a good idea to honestly talk about your uneasy feelings about your current job, which is the reason for your initial retirement, and ask for personnel changes.

Anyway, as it is, as it is, you will be mentally and physically driven in any case, and eventually you may be forced to retire... it's not about retirement, but I know what it would be like to proceed with preparations and discussions in a direction where you can completely turn your mind around due to the transfer.

I pray that there will be good places.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho