I want to die but I can't
I want to die, but I'm too afraid to die.
It's so much harder to be alive, and it's hard to keep living like this, but I can't even die.
It's hard to change even if I think it will get even a little better.
I don't even know what would change and how I would like to live.
I've managed to live my life by putting off the feeling that I want to die anyway, with only 1 year left, only 6 months left, until 2020, or at least until 2019, and at least until tomorrow, but I'm really at my limit.
How many times should I face the feeling that I want to die? That's already a lot.
The pain of not being able to die even if you want to.
What should I do.
