If I kill myself, will I go to hell?

I read your consultation.

You can live. I don't need anyone's permission or approval. This is because you are living a precious life for yourself.

But I also understand the feeling that you don't want to live because of so much pain.

However, it's not simply “I don't want to live,” but “I don't want to live like this.”

Therefore, after death, they seek some kind of salvation, and conversely, they are afraid of hell. While taking that form, you are now struggling to awaken to your true desires.

There are many teachings about hell after death. A lot of people say a lot of things.

Why is that?

That's because all living people say it.

No one has ever seen the real afterlife. So it can be interpreted in any way.

Don't be swayed by anything that comes together depending on your interpretation, and you can only be happy with that life if you accept the definite facts that already exist here and now.

I think there are a lot of people I want to be. If you set that ideal self as a good standard, your current self, which can't be the case, will become your bad self.

That's not the case; I myself, who I am, here and now, is the starting point at any time. If you don't get to the start, you won't be able to take the next step.

I'm not saying it's bad if you don't change. Aren't you in the midst of a desire to change yourself?

And I think it's a step that starts with acknowledging and accepting who you are right now.

What fears hell doesn't do anything about that fear itself, and even if you forcibly overwrite your fear with the idea that you don't have to go to hell by any means, it's not true salvation.

True salvation from hell is only when you stand in a place where hell is superior and fair in hell.

Fear of hell after death is the opposite of the hesitation of not being able to accept the here and now.

you are you. No one else can replace you. I can't replace them. It's one of a kind. There is no need to compare, and let's live our lives driven by your own true wishes.

hello!

I was able to catch the pain in my heart.

For myself, it's all kinds of things, maybe! I lost once due to that event. He is also the person involved in the execution in an attempt to commit suicide.

Nearly 30,000 people all over the country are turning off the light of precious lives that cannot be changed by anything with their own hands. Worries, social factors... it's death after being psychologically cornered by that, developing a mental illness, or being driven astray for a long time due to illness

By taking your own life, you must carry on your back not only the guilt of not being able to save your family rather than the person yourself, but also for the rest of your life.

Life always comes to an end, even if you keep silent at some point.

I think there was something so painful that I wanted to light up the light of life. Nevertheless, I am grateful that they are still alive.

I want to die... I want to live! There was a conflict, and I'm sure they are fluctuating in the midst of both of them. There are people who feel sad when you're gone. The adventure journey of a lifetime has just begun.

I will live for you too. Please don't make me sad that I need you... You can change your life and destiny as much as you want in a grain of sand. Please don't give up and live your life.

I will always listen carefully to the end of the story. Please come here whenever it becomes difficult.
Gassho

That's not the case.
More than that, your current situation seems like hell to me.
It broadens your horizons.
Let's get advice from various people, read various books, and broaden our horizons with awareness.
That's because people have a narrower field of vision when they're depressed.
If it gets too narrow, all you can see is suicide.
That's because college isn't the only thing in life.
Did you go to college because you loved the piano?
Other than classical music, there are various genres such as pop music, jazz, and rock.
It's good to play music you like.
Or do they have future goals?
Pianists, music teachers, rock bands, composers, etc.
It's also important to remember your first feelings.
Also, even if you give up on the piano, there are definitely paths other than piano.
Are relationships what makes you feel stressed?
Let's train our mind against stress by getting involved with others little by little.
Speaking of which, an autistic young man was playing the piano on TV the other day.
They said that although they were hyperacussive, they got used to hearing sounds they didn't like many times.
Doesn't your finger move on its own when you've drawn songs over and over again?
That's because I'm used to it.
Relationships are the same, so it's important to get used to them.
Little by little, at your own pace.
What kind of song would it be if you played your current state of mind on the piano.
is that a song like destiny?
or is it a song like Endless Rain?

I read it.
“If I commit suicide, will I go to hell?” As for the question, there is no such thing.
This is because the Buddha always saves us.
Also, “If you get cancer and refuse treatment, is that suicide?” However, since it depends on what circumstances you refuse treatment, I don't think it can be unequivocally called suicide.

I think you were asked that question because you are so worried and suffering right now, and I think it's because you are suffering and lost to the point where you are already thinking about suicide. I think your heart has been driven to the point where you feel sorry. I understand your feelings from the bottom of my heart.

It may be repetitive, but you are very important. Many people have nurtured and loved you. There are an infinite number of people who are happy and support you that you are alive.

Please heal your mind and body slowly now, and if you are sick, don't be in a hurry and treat it well.

Please talk about your painful feelings at this place. Try taking pain and suffering off your shoulders. Please forgive yourself, acknowledge yourself, and take good care of yourself from the bottom of your heart.

Please speak slowly about your feelings, hesitation, worries, and suffering, and let go of that burden little by little.

I sincerely pray that your heart will be healed, that your mind will be at ease and calm, and that you will be able to survive every day in good health.

Please let me know how you feel again.