I still haven't recited nembutsu to my husband who committed suicide...

　That was painful.

I also loved my loved ones when I was young.

I can't accept the death of a loved one...

I can't get cramps...

That was the case for me, too.

Right now, you can leave it as it is.

Your husband is always there for you.

A “memorial service” is your way of life.

With those footprints, I hope we can laugh and meet again in Buddha's country...

Singing Nembutsu too...

For now, it's fine as it is..

fine

Namu Amida Buddha

In the Jodo sect, there are terms such as “club one place” and “ichiren support.”
It means being together in the Pure Land of Paradise created by Amitabha Buddha, or being born on the same lotus flower.
According to the sutras, when they are reborn (passed away) in the Pure Land of Paradise, they are not born from an egg or mother's womb, but are born in a lotus flower.
With the power of Amitabha Buddha, we will surely be able to meet again in the Pure Land of Paradise.
Regardless of how you died, it's fine if you leave it to Amitabha Buddha.
Furthermore, there are experts who say that 90% of people who commit suicide suffer from “depression.”
Just as fever or cough are symptoms of a cold, symptoms of “depression” cause a sense of rare death.
So why don't you think of suicide as a type of death from illness?
No one can avoid life, old age, illness, or death.
No matter how we die, Amitabha will not abandon us and welcome us to the Pure Land of Paradise.
I can't help but think so! If you don't think that you can pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise, you can't live your life!
I would be happy if Namu Amida Buddha could be called such a cry of the heart.
Namu, Ami, Dabu, Namu, Ami, Dabu, Namu, Ami, Dabu...
Calling (saying) nembutsu with a constant rhythm also has elements of brain rhythmic movement, regulates serotonin nerves, and may also lead to prevention of “depression.”
“Nanmyoho Rengekyo”
However, there are elements of brain rhythm movement, even if it's “gyatte gala” (a spell appearing in the Heart Sutra) or just hitting a wooden fish with poke pok pok pok.
If your family member is “depressed,” there is a risk that you will become so worried that even yourself will become “depressed.”
Namu Amida Buddha has the power to break the chain of melancholy. Calling out the name of Amitabha Buddha by saying the name of a sharp sword is a sword or protective sword that breaks bad karma.
Amitabha Buddha is a Buddha who gives a happy ending.
May living and living things that have been reincarnated over and over again be happy in the end. May you finally realize it.
Namu Amida Buddha.

I read it.
I will be quiet with all my heart in Nembutsu for my husband.
Namu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu
Husbands are always guided by the Buddha and are kindly welcomed by many ancestors and close people, and they are saved from any hesitation, worries, and suffering under the Buddha. Also, you will feel at ease and at ease from the bottom of your heart, and your mind will be at ease.
From now on, you will be happy to attain Buddhism with your ancestors and close people who have been there before, and they will be close to and protect you and everyone in your family.

You're probably still having a hard time right now, you may not feel like putting your hands together easily, and you may not feel like being quiet with Nembutsu.
I think that's fine now. I think it's okay to slowly talk to your husband about your feelings in your heart. I think that is fine within a reasonable range.

The relationship between you and your husband is forever. You're always connected.
I listen to your voice and continue to gently watch your every move.

One day, when you have reached the end of your life, the Buddha will guide you, and your husband will be the first to welcome you. And they spend time together, don't they?

There's no need to be in a hurry. Your husband is with you.

Hello Kamayu.

You can't recite nembutsu to your beloved husband, can you?
No, that's not true. I'm already chanting nembutsu. Two of them are also chanting Namu Amitabha Buddha in the question. Even if you chant just one thing, you'll be saved, so you must have already been saved. I just don't notice it.

Let's think more casually. Paradise with a husband is connected to your husband's thoughts and heart. It's about whether you feel it or not.

Namu Amida Buddha, Namu Amida Buddha, Namu Amida Buddha

I wrote it. If you've read this far now, Kamayu would have put on three more nembutsu.

After that, wait for your mind to calm down and improve your life. It's natural that it takes time. Therefore, from the first seven-day memorial service, there are milestone memorial services to calm down, such as the 1st anniversary, the 3rd anniversary, and the 7th anniversary. Since the mind does not completely calm down until the death of the death, there are 33rd and 50th anniversaries. And you have the rest of your life feeling for your husband. Whether or not we can meet after passing away, we can meet that. If you keep that in mind.

It was difficult, but let's get our lives ready first. Sometimes fun play is necessary. Let's take a trip too. Let's watch a movie too. Your husband will definitely be happy with your new life.

I'm rooting for you. Gassho