Was I right?

I pushed past my parents' opposition
I've started the life I've always wanted to live alone.

I felt sorry for my parents quite a bit, and even though my heart was in pain, I was able to get support for my independence and freedom.

However, when I was alone, I realized that freedom and solitude are the same.

As an immature person, I now realise the happiness and warmth of having my family by my side.

Being alone is easy, and it's also easy not to listen to your parents' complexion.

However, my heart is complicated, and I suddenly burst into tears as I walk down the street, wondering if I got this life where I spent all of my salary on living expenses at the expense of time with my family.

Please give me some advice on life for me who is immature.
Thank you for your support.

5 Zen Responses

Being a monk ≠ running away from home

You're studying really well.

In the midst of that loneliness you are feeling now, please feel how carefully you have been protected as everyone's treasure until now. Also, if you were raised that way, you were able to clearly notice that you were a [Tenjo Tenka Yuiga Dokuson] who is so precious and thankful that you can't lose to Buddha or Christ, then in the future, no matter how difficult it is for you, you will never think “I want to die already” or “what am I” again.

Once you've realized this far, you'll be able to show up at your parents' house in the true sense of the word. Also, I think your parents will finally be able to say that they “completed raising the child” and “had great success.”

That's a good decision

I read it.
I think it was a good thing that you judged and acted on.
You've probably felt, learned, or become aware of various things through that.
If you hadn't judged and acted, you wouldn't even have felt that way, and I don't think you would have felt a relationship, appreciation, or love with your parents.
That alone is very important.
If you don't mind, why don't you write a letter about your feelings in between now and send it to your parents?
As a result, parents can also learn about your relationship with you and your situation and growth, so I think it will have a significant impact on your parents' future lives.
Children grow little by little and become independent. It's that time now.
Please continue to try various things for yourself and for your life.
I support you from the bottom of my heart. That's because you're always being watched over by lots of people.

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