It's Hard Being Alive

Nice to meet you, today.

There is no guarantee that tomorrow's life or tomorrow will come for everyone. Then, due to some kind of trigger, you will be given an important reminder that you have forgotten.

There are absolutely no things that are taken for granted, no wasted events, and no wasted lives.

I got my motorcycle license when I was a student and enjoyed a weekend mini-trip. One day what I thought I would be fine was overturned. There was an incident where the accident caused many deep wounds to the face. There are parts around the mouth where there are still no nerves, and there are sequelae such as discomfort that makes you feel pulled on cold days, and if you're not careful, you may spill during meals or you may not be able to speak words well. At the time of the accident, I couldn't even look in the mirror myself with a face similar to what I saw in a horror movie. Whether you're on the bus or train, eat somewhere else at the unavoidable standing cafeteria! There have also been times when they have been evicted out. I loved going outside and going to various places, but that incident made me afraid to go outside. At that time, I sometimes visited and stayed at the house of my grandmother, who treated me like a family with the chief priest of the temple. Grandma was a friendly person, and many people visited, and among them was an elementary school child. I used to play with them from time to time, but I noticed something wrong with me... it was painful, and even if my face changed due to the wound, I didn't change to my older brother! They smiled and treated me without change. Saved by those words, I was able to stop hiding my wounds by putting an adhesive bandage on them and start walking with my face raised in a proud manner.

The lives and bodies you have been given are proof of the survival of our ancestors who have overcome difficulties over thousands of years, and the feelings and wishes of our parents have further overlapped, and we are living in this moment. Aren't you losing sight of important things by following only the figures?

The figure and face can be reshaped. What about the heart? No matter how cool you are, if your mind is cloudy... you'll only be cheated on for a while. When you complain and grimace, you end up living that kind of life. You can change your life, your destiny, and yourself as much as you want. Why don't you gradually escape from grumbling, increase the number, and change the word thank you to a smile? There are advantages that only you can have. You can turn them into positives and change everything with a little bit of courage and effort. You won't run away unless you give up on your dreams and hopes. I hope you can arrange an adventure trip called life in your own way. Gassho

My hands are shaking, but if the cause is unknown, there is no cure. Not knowing the cause is a difficult part.

It's no good to make a fool of a shiver or take it up and bully him. Even though I can't fix it myself.

Even though I don't know the cause myself and I'm suffering, my parents and friends just do selfish things. It makes me suffer. I wish you could leave me alone.

well, that's because people are selfish. I only say selfish things.

It is said that someone you like confessed, but I think there are times when things don't go well. That's because I have an opponent. Well, why don't you wait a while, become even better friends, then try confessing again?

No matter what, it's a life where people are swayed by people. I'm also concerned about others' eyes and opinions. But I don't like being criticized.

Living is hard, isn't it?

I know it's painful.
When I said, “I know,” I too am concerned about your suffering
That's because there's no way you'll understand.
“I want you to understand”
Even if you can take that wish, it doesn't mean you really understand it.

fearfully
I understand one thing, even if I just read this sentence
It means “unapproachable” to you.
You can sense that they are trying not to let them get close to you somewhere.

That is, you don't like you
I think it's the biggest cause.
People who surround themselves with an aura of “dislike”
Hotoke-sama is the only one who Tsutsumi Komu.
You wouldn't be able to ask for it from a normal person.

Then I think it would be nice if you were alone.
It is precisely because you have experienced a greater sense of hopelessness and inferiority than this,
To a precious oath that can envelop every person's “dislikes,”
You're probably the only one who can become alive.

With a sign of Hokke-sama, who would accept herself as anyone
You can just wrap it up.
If you don't know what to do,

I'm going to pray to the principal image of a nearby temple.
Face the principal image, put your hands together, and close your eyes quietly.
Breathe slowly and worship the principal image again.
It may make you feel a different feeling than before.

The Buddha shows that things will always change.

Too loud, nothing changed. While I'm saying to do something
I kept myself to myself, and that didn't change anything.

It's up to you what you want to do.

All I can do is pray to you.
That's pathetic. But I can't help but pray for your happiness.
Go your own way. well then. We clapped hands.

I read it. I read that you've been having a hard time with your body until now. I may not know the details of your feelings, but I sincerely understand your feelings.
Please take your time and talk about your thoughts up until now at this place as well. Then try to get it out of you. Try exhaling it from within you without hoarding it up inside of you.
It's a life that comes close to that, so please try to do your own thing. We are currently in a situation where many people cannot go out due to the spread of the coronavirus infection, but it will surely come to an end. Why don't you do your own activities to prepare for that. Among them, there are new discoveries and encounters.
For example, my friend presides over the “Temple and Shrine Con” and provides encounters for many people. https://jisyacon.com/
Among them, they also accept various love counseling, and they are also planning tours to participate in various temple and shrine events. If you don't mind, why don't you feel free to join in search of casual encounters.
Or maybe once it calms down, various events and events will be planned at each temple or shrine. For example, “shakai,” “puja,” “zazen,” “nembutsu,” “statement concerts,” etc. will be planned, so why not actively participate.
Among them, there are things that interest and interest you, and there are also things you will fall in love with, and new encounters will surely come.
Each and every one of us has complexes, there are things we are not good at, and there are times when we are too nervous to do things or things that don't come our way.
Each one is our characteristic. Let's overcome that little by little in various ways.
Your life is about to begin. You're connected to us here too. Please go out and try out various things.
And please let me know how you feel again. I'm really looking forward to seeing you.