I'm not afraid to die.

You have deep questions about the meaning of life.

That question is very important, so please take care of it.

As we live our lives, it's wonderful to find something “for someone” or “for something.”

But ultimately speaking, that “someone” or “something” will eventually be lost due to death or change. Furthermore, I myself, who discovers that “someone” or “something” as the meaning of life, must die someday.

Then, when I think about the question of the meaning of life, I finally hit this wall called “death.” This is a religious challenge. It's probably something science can't solve.

But no matter how you think about it, physical death is inevitable. So asking for how to surpass death without deceiving it is a religious quest.

If that's not the case and you just want to find something, that's fine.
The meaning of living as “someone” or “something” can only be found in encounters. I think that kind of thing will be discovered through encounters with various people and things.

However, if you rely on what you have found as an “answer” and hold on to it, losing that “answer” one day becomes hopeless, and anxiety that you will lose it someday even when you don't lose it comes rushing in.
In other words, it may be said that the solution to the “question of the meaning of life” is not finding an “answer,” but rather being able to live with the “question” as a “question.”

I don't want to do that, and there may be times when I don't feel like I can find “someone” or “something” anymore in the first place.

However, there is a fact that we are actually living before thinking about the “question of the meaning of life.” It is precisely because I was born and alive that I have this question.
In other words, there is a fact that I've lived until now even if I haven't found an “answer.”

In the end, the goals that were discovered from time to time were just things that changed from time to time. And that will probably continue to be the case. But that's not meaningless.

You're going to be a “poop” anyway, so no matter what you eat, it doesn't mean there's no point. Just as a meal has many meanings, whether it's delicious or not, who made it, where and with whom you ate it, there is already an infinite meaning in the relationship right in front of you.

Creatures called humans are bound by meaning. However, it is also something that also hurts because of it. Dogs and cats don't think about what they live for. I just silently continue living the life I've been given.

It is also said that this phenomenon of being caught up in the meaning of life began after modern times. It's called a relatively new problem.

“What and for whom should I live from now on?” I don't understand this question either. Isn't it freedom for each person? Life is cruel because you don't understand, and there isn't just one meaning or anything like that, is it? If you try to answer this question easily, it will seem like an emerging religion that is extremely dangerous.

I feel like there is a deep sense of distress at the root of your question. Just being alive is exhausting. Actually, I feel that continuing to live without dying is not a matter of course and is a big deal. You are told that you can die at any time, but don't you have deeper wishes than you think in your head when you have been asked questions like this? You probably sent an email from somewhere hoping that you don't want to die like this?
Humans have a deep desire to encounter something profound. You haven't met them yet, have you? I haven't come across it yet, but I think I want to encounter something deep that makes me say “I lived with this.” (It could be literature, art, or nature.)

That was the case for me myself; I didn't know why I live, I started listening to Buddhism because I wanted to encounter something I thought was profound, and I came across several teachers and teachings that I could say were real, and I'm still living my life thinking I won't be able to listen to this. The encounter made me walk.

It's called the meaning of life, but do we know enough what living is in the first place? Aren't you just thinking you knew it? If you've been bound by meaning until now, why don't you try living for a while to experience something deep, away from the meaning once, away from anyone's eyes or common sense? Isn't it okay to ignore SNS? Why don't you take time to explore the depths of life, or rather, life itself. That's what I thought.

Nice to meet you, today.

My days were smooth sailing. One day, all of a sudden, everything came crashing down, chewing on despair and crying, desperately killing the voice, desperately binding my heart to overflow and going wild, and desperately living so as not to break it, which was slightly connected. I was desperately enduring astonishing pain and pain while trying to live, but I couldn't bear the heavy pressure and took my life. They were discovered, resuscitated unexpectedly, and brought back to wandering through the equinox and here (this world). Too many painful events have occurred over and over again, to the point that it was impossible to say that there was no god or Buddha.

He died once because of this incident. There are still times when I'm very afraid of my other self, who isn't afraid of dying at all. It makes me anxious and worried because I suddenly... think about future events that aren't even in the past or haven't come. Live in your own way, this moment that will never happen again, which isn't even that future. These are words that my girlfriend, who I lost in the earthquake, left behind and brought me back to this world.

You can change your life, destiny, and yourself as much as you want, and restart. Age doesn't matter. I have passed the age of 40, started from an ordinary office worker, became a monk, became a temple, and became an unknown monk, and was in a penniless state with no splendid decorations, an altar, or nice clothes, but being able to save people in similar circumstances and people suffering from distress, and being able to do hardships and relaxation for those who even I need it.

You won't run away unless you give up on your dreams and hopes. Dreams can come true at any age. A miraculous life tens of times more than a lottery ticket. I was born in a relatively blessed country. Why don't you gradually increase your thank you without complaining or grimbling, and shine through the goodness and wonderful smile that only you can have? You never know when an opportunity will come. Don't miss it so you can seize that opportunity at any time. We are proof of the survival of our ancestors who overcame difficulties in thousands of years. We also have the power to overcome anything. There are lives that have been passed down and issues given to each. That's what we're living for. Don't lose sight of your precious heart and yourself. I hope you can arrange an adventure trip called life in your own way without being misled. I'm praying for you.

Gassho

In the current situation
The reason you don't have any goals
It can't be helped.

though
When work starts
Isn't there another goal coming up?
Trust it
Why don't you just have a little more patience?