I read your consultation. About a year ago, I was asked a question about Shomyo Nembutsu. You've been listening to the Jodo Shinshu Sect since before that, haven't you?
However, it is said that doubts have not been cleared up. What is the nature of the doubt? Please let me hear it again if you don't mind. Let's listen to it together.
Now, during hearings, are there many opportunities to ask what kind of person Amitabha Buddha targets for salvation? It is this “me alone,” and what kind of person I am is an ordinary man living in distress. An ordinary man is an ordinary man no matter how far we go. It's not that an ordinary person ceases to be an ordinary person and can be saved.
Since ordinary people don't know the truth, they inevitably ask for their own help. Amitabha Buddha's original wish probably works in the hearts of ordinary people.
The work must have already arrived at Haruka's place. If worries flourish, then the original wish is also flourishing.
Maybe what Haruka is trying to gain is not faith, but +α beyond that (something so-called beneficial). I think it feels like you can't gain faith because you don't realize something that is easy to understand.
I'm also an ordinary person, so I think it's the same that my doubts aren't cleared up. There are many things I feel uneasy and don't understand as I keep listening. But that's why it also makes me keenly aware that it is a teaching that works for me alone.
Please don't give up and keep listening. Doubts are nothing to be ashamed of, so if you don't mind, please tell me more about the story.
Namu Amida Buddha