I'm worried about being a pervert

　Makoto-san. This experience has excellent qualities as a male in the animal world, but it is taboo (taboo) in monogamous Japan. It is taboo (taboo) even in Buddhist precepts. This is the end of my proper argument as a monk. I will state my personal opinion below.
◆If you want to stop this sexual habit, why don't you learn from a great person?
・Goethe
He was heartbroken and thinking about suicide, and he wrote about that time in his novel “The Trouble of Young Werther,” and stopped committing suicide. Why don't you write a book about your experiences up until now? It's a bit of a pornographic novel, but if it becomes a work similar to Yoshiyuki Junnosuke or Watanabe Junichi, it will be established as literature and royalties will also be included, so I think it's a good deal. However, there were side effects, and young people who read this novel by Goethe began to commit suicide, and it seems that it became a bad trend in Europe at the time. As you probably know the works of Watanabe Junichi, “Lost Paradise” became so famous that it won the Buzzword Award. I also have to be prepared for that in order to write a novel, but by writing, I can suppress my sexual desire. Continuing to write causes pain and makes me hate my sexual desire.
You're also in your 50s, and you're about to retire. If you do the same thing even after passing here, “You're young.” “You're doing well.” It may go so far as to give you a sense of respect when you are told that. However, if you talk to your family about this, an extremely common wife or child will never accept it. Worst of all, it could even result in a mature divorce. Keep going so you don't get caught, take a break, or graduate. By all means, I recommend that you bring your own sexual habits to the grave.
Actually, eagles love pretty girls. Every time I watch celebrities Fukada Kyoko, Takei Saki, Haru, Sakuraba Nanami, Arimura Kasumi, Kimura Fumino, etc. on TV, I'm fascinated and my wife feels bad. Another similar girl passes by and stops when she feels like doing something. This is because precepts and the position of being a monk hold back. I may have learned that part through my ascetic practice.
In order to fully demonstrate reason (ability to suppress instincts), a certain amount of training may be necessary.
※The eagle's coming out is embarrassing.

I once received this confession from a man in the city.
“I've had relationships with 600 women. Tonight, too, I'm going to meet a woman I met through dating.
... Actually, my wife got uterine fibroids and cervical cancer because of my play. It's definitely my fault.” and.
In other words, this man repeatedly had sexual acts with many women, and while keeping many bacteria and viruses on his crotch missile, he also gave his wife the gift of death while engaging in sexual activity with his wife. It's probably not just his wife, though.
Humans possess many bacteria depending on their diet and lifestyle. When it comes to sexual activity, bacteria in the body are also exchanged. You should understand that there is such a risk.
There may not be much impact on the male side, but the female side is at such risk due to the structure of the body. Women's bodies are more delicate than men's. Due to the structure of the body, having sexual relationships with multiple people of the opposite sex itself increases the risk of developing uterine fibroids and cervical cancer.
Simply put, the more you say no, the more you'll understand the meaning, but that's why you are physically and mentally complicit in murders.
There is a trend where chastity is ridiculed, but chastity is the most refined and healthy way of being that takes such details into consideration.
Also, they have destroyed a number of peaceful families by leaving the dog called Selfish with your sakari in the wild.
First, what would your child think if your wife had an affair?
How do you accept the fact that it “tastes good on a person's wife's child”?
We should correct the lies. Do you love your wife?
I feel sorry for the wife, children, and the husband and children of the woman who had an affair with you.
From a point of view where you don't feel a single remorse from the text, I think damnation will surely fall, such as knowing your existence and being avenged for having your home polluted by your husband or child, but that is self-deserved.
If you don't feel the weight of the crime of undermining the dignity and dignity of yourself, your family, or your partner's family for the rest of your life, you just repeat it over and over again.
All you have to do is take a serious look at lying to yourself and resolve your own selfishness and self-love. At first glance, your confession seems to include repentance, but I don't think it's serious enough, so I think it would be better to use this as a trigger for serious repentance.
It's about taking yourself seriously.

Makoto-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

It is said that they are worried about “perverts”... in view of the content, it is conceivable that there is a suspicion of “sex addiction,” or “sexual addiction,” which became famous during the affair reports of former US President Bill Clinton and US pro golfer Tiger Woods...

Regarding “sexual addiction,” I have dealt with it a little bit even in my humble answers to the following questions.

Question “patience”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/467

“... If it is dependency, there is a possibility that they are also refraining from mental problems such as some mental anxiety or stress, etc., so I know that if mental stability and mental satisfaction are obtained by dealing with the problem, it will be suppressed. ・・”

“... Denying the physiological functions and reproductive functions that normal humans have can also deny the meaning of existence of the human species and the meaning of existence of oneself, so that's not good, but if you are too dependent on something and fall into the extreme, there is a high possibility that some kind of problem has occurred, so I think we must be careful about that. ・・”

“... In the case of severe dependency, you may not be able to control it yourself and there is nothing you can do about it. Therefore, it may be necessary to seek treatment at an appropriate medical institution or counseling. ・・”

Dependency issues are, again, severe cases.

“No life without a lover for 30 years” · “relationships with men” · “drugs/SM experience” · “anything ants” · “paroxysmal running to SM or gay saunas...” · “I also have experienced infectious diseases”...

Hmm... this might be severe... if so, it's quite conceivable that there is nothing you can do with just your own efforts aimed at self-control.

Yes... there is a high possibility that you will fail on the contrary even if you force yourself to do something about it, so it may be unwilling, but if possible, I think it is necessary to consult with an expert at an appropriate medical/psychotherapy institution and aim for a solution.

I pray for good fortune.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho