sickness

I know you can do it already, but why don't you go through a thorough examination again?
It's also a big hospital...
Also, please see a psychosomatic medicine doctor.

Mind and body are linked.
As you know, it's not a different thing.
Therefore, when the mind gets tired, the body responds, and the opposite is also true,
For you today, as a “good way to switch your mind when your mind is tired”
I recommend that you see a psychosomatic medicine doctor.

Also, we recommend going out to places in the suburbs where you can bathe in the forest.
Now, let's take lots of phytoncides.

Everyone “wants to always be healthy.” I think so, but in reality, that's not always the case. Regardless of the degree, everyone has some kind of chronic illness or has various medical histories. Even if you are healthy now, the types of illnesses and the types of medicines you take will increase as you get older. It's something we can't avoid in our lives. However, at this age, if “if you think one illness has finally been cured, another illness will be discovered,” I certainly don't feel at ease. I think it's natural to feel depressed.

One of the fundamental teachings of Buddhism is “everything that is impermanent changes.” There is no denying the possibility that your health will deteriorate further due to impermanent actions, but on the other hand, I think there is also a possibility that your illness will be cured and you will be able to enjoy a healthy lifestyle.
As the chief priest, I sometimes watch and listen to the parishioners' first generation. While people who were proud of their health and spoke loudly about “they won't die even if you kill them” suddenly die in their prime of work, there are also examples where people who were said to be “weak” from childhood became healthy after becoming middle-aged and elderly, lived well until they were close to 100 years old, and died a “pinpin colori” death.

In Buddhism, it is explained that every phenomenon in this world is suffering for oneself. It is something that always accompanies us when we are born into this world. There is no doubt that it is “suffering,” but if you think about it carefully, it is something you will definitely experience in your life. It's “a matter of course.”
No famous doctor can grasp all health conditions based on “pulse,” “complexion,” and “heart rate.” Of course, no one else can understand your health better than a doctor. They don't properly understand your suffering. Also, you cannot understand everyone's health conditions yourself, and you may not always be able to provide proper care.
However, I think it is precisely because you have suffered from illness that you can understand and be close to people who suffer from illness. The field of vision may also expand through illness. I think there are things you might notice.

One last word. As I wrote in the title, it's not “illness = unhappiness.” Getting sick is unavoidable. But even if you suffer from illness, “It was a good life.” There is always a way of life that you can look back on.

Good morning, Saru.
I don't like being sick.
I also suffer from depression, and I was in agony wondering when I would be freed from this suffering, so I understand your feelings very well.
For those of you, there is a book I definitely want you to read.
“Inamori Kazuo's Philosophy”
I think there are a lot of hints written in this book to solve your problems.
I recommend reading it.

Illnesses are divided into people who get sick well and people who get sick easily.
Even if I get sick, I try to ❝ be good ❞ sick.
Getting sick well means keeping your mind from getting dented or sinking even when your body is sick.
On the other hand, getting ❝ sick ❞ means that your body is sick and your mind is sick.
Mental illness is a sense of disappointment, loss, depression, depression, melancholy, gloomy, dark, negative, lack of energy...
The body is certainly tough.
My body is still sick, but I can support, help, and support someone by responding in this way.
Even with the same cancer, there are people who are energetic and those who are depressed.
After all, if it's the same cancer, don't you think it's better to get cancer well! (^<^)
Even if your body is sick, don't let your heart succumb to illness.
Is it a good way to change your mind?
The mind is actually constantly changing.
There's no leftover stuff anywhere, away from the previous one.
Just as there are no leftovers even if you project things in a mirror, your heart certainly has had a hard time right now, but the mirror of your mind has properly ended that, and there are no leftovers anywhere.
The mind is not something to switch, and by noticing that it is changing, it becomes equal to enlightenment.
I'll write about how to overcome illness.
When it comes to illness, it's good to be mischievous and mentally ill, if you forget your mental and physical illness even if you are sick, don't get sick with your heart, and just do what you can do, even if you are sick, it's a disease, and even if you have pain, there is no worry about illness or illness.
Please take good care of yourself and get sick.

Saru

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

I sincerely apologize for your disappointment, anxiety, and pain about your illness.

The suffering of eight hardships (life, old age, illness, death, love separation, grudge and hate, unrequited suffering) is typical for us, but of course illness also has major suffering... as we live, everyone is big or small, and that is what we suffer from even one cold.

Of course, Boo has also experienced hospitalization and surgery until now, and recently there has been an increase in the number of cases where people get caught every year with human dogs such as follow-up care and tests... I really don't like looking at the results every time... let alone when a gastroscope says “I took a living body and put it out for examination,” I'm worried about this and that until the results come out...

Therefore, I feel impatient every day that I have to do something about what I can do while I am healthy. I try to do my best to respond to hasunoha while I am doing well now.

However... it is really painful for Saru to be unwell and has been ill for a long time...

Of course, it is certain that diseases have some kind of cause, but even with the development of medical technology, there are things that are still unavoidable, including congenital ones, genetic ones, etc., so it's still unavoidable to fall into anxiety...

We have received the following questions from people who have been suffering from intractable diseases before.

Question “I'm frustrated with people around me...”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/1002972380.html

At this time, I am dealing with the etymology of “thankful,” but rather than worrying and suffering by imagining things that cannot be done due to illness, I think it would be good if you could focus on what you can do and what you can do “thankfully” even in such circumstances, and if possible, switch your mind even a little so that you can have a sense of gratitude for each one.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho