I can't tell anyone.

Be prepared to go to hell. That's all I did. It's much more painful to run away.
Get through it head-on without running away from the suffering in front of you! That is the teaching called the Lotus Sutra.
Even if you hide the facts, it's just a moment of peace. If you want to be saved from the root, don't run away from reality! Don't look away!
That is the teaching of the Lotus Sutra.
Make up your mind and reveal the facts to your husband.
They are married after all, so it should be most convincing for the two of them to decide what kind of path to choose.

Buddhism teaches you to reap the seeds you sow yourself.
However, because of the seeds the lost child sowed, innocent children are burdened with future hardships. Even if families are poor, families can cooperate and live a happy life. However, if not only the lost child but also the husband have a good male-female relationship, children will not be able to grow up with peace of mind. The feeling that I want to get out of suffering also seems like I'm only thinking about myself. First, change your way of life for your children (it's for children, so I say it harshly).

Unlike in the past, even if you hide your child species, you can now tell by DNA testing, so you can't keep it hidden. The more we procrastinate, the greater our problems and suffering. First, do a DNA test on the child. I think it's around 30,000 yen now. If you are not your husband's child as a result of the appraisal, you should talk to your husband and get divorced due to both losses and losses. Lost children must take their own responsibility and raise their children well. If it's your husband's child, please consult with your husband to decide whether to get divorced or not. Even if they get divorced, two people are responsible for raising children.

Then, through a new life, I reset the way I have been until now. Then, change to the right way of life as a human being, and start your life again from scratch. At least the child is a lost child by blood. Please make your child your own treasure and aim to be a proud parent who is loved by your children once again. Children will grow well and love their mother just because of that love. I think that will be my greatest happiness from now on.

He confided his suffering that he couldn't tell anyone about in this hasunoha. This alone paved the way for your life. The sutras explain, “Suffering is like frost, and when the sun shines on it, it disappears.” If you follow the right path, your suffering will surely disappear. Please don't run away from suffering and live your life. Gassho

There are problems with both, in a sense.
for both of you. I feel sorry for your child. If you know the facts, children are the ones who feel the most hurt. You'd better keep them face down for the sake of your child.
Children are always the victims of adulthood. I don't feel sorry when I think about my kids. Never talk about it. However, as long as you are not your husband's child, you should not claim child support after divorce. In the unlikely event that it is discovered, you will receive not only a refund claim but also an alimony claim from your husband. Well, both are whichever they are.
Your atonement is to raise your child alone without anyone's support. It's about fulfilling that responsibility as a parent. I think repentance, redemption, and forgiveness are basic. I think I'll reflect on what I did, atone for my sins and gain forgiveness by raising my child alone.
Confessions go back and forth, complicate matters, and make your child unhappy. Please work hard for your child and work hard to raise them. The Buddha is watching your actions in the future.
Please do your best.

hello. I saw it.

They say they can't talk to their family, friends, or anyone else. The inside of my heart isn't at peace, is it? I think you're having a hard day. I think everyone has things they can't talk about, even if they know they're selfish. There are things I can't even say to the Buddha. That is probably the kind of people we live with worries.

It is said that they have had a relationship with another person since they were in a relationship with their current husband. And now they're talking about whether or not to get divorced due to the husband's relationship with his woman. When I was in a relationship, I had a question about why I had relationships with other people. I'm not blaming you. However, I think it was probably because I was lonely or had some kind of emotion or thought for that to happen. I felt that feeling might have been unknowingly conveyed to my current husband. If your husband is also going to cause problems with women in the coming period, I think they have “something” in their thoughts. I thought it might be necessary to unravel that area. Anger is true, but knowing the inside of that heart may be an opportunity for you to address your own problems.

However, if various things are intricately intertwined by any means, I think it's okay to choose a path where you and your child can feel safe now. Even if it's selfish, if you don't get peace of mind, your kids won't be able to get peace of mind either. Even if it's selfish, I think it's possible to take responsibility when the opportunity presents itself.

May peace come to your heart.

Gassho