The time left with my mother

The desire to be strong and the feeling of not being able to do it
Nice to hear from you. I understand your feelings.

As explained by the Buddha, the root cause of the suffering in our lives, “death from old age sickness,”
It is also a suffering where the dignity of those who put themselves there is damaged.

As we get older, we naturally lose energy and physical strength, and it becomes difficult to achieve fulfillment when we were young.
When you get sick, you tend to hold a grudge against your inconvenient self suffering from pain, and take even other worries as pity or shame.
Death is tormented by feelings that doubt the very existence of that person will come to nothing, or even the value of life up until now.

However, no matter what kind of situation they find themselves in, people want to be people,
Your mother probably wants to spend time with you as a mother.

The mother may be the one who wishes to support even though she has a body that is being taken over by illness little by little. My child isn't bothered by his illness, is he overdoing nursing care, is he sacrificing his life for my illness...

A mother who cares about her children always doesn't want to lose her dignity as a mother, whether old or sick, and even when death comes.

Maybe one of the things you can do for your mom right now is to try relying on her. Even if you confide that you can't fully accept your mother's anxiety, your mother will accept your honest feelings.

Just being bright and strong without showing weakness is not what Buddhism aims for. It's okay if you feel nervous or depressed. I think what is important is the mentality of “common suffering,” where your mother and you share your worries, doubts, and difficult feelings together in life and life.

I'm worried. I want it to heal. I painfully understand the feeling that they want them to live a long time. We also have elderly parents. I'd like to take them to hot springs, etc., but my health condition doesn't allow it, so it's a good place to drive around nearby shrines and temples. After that, I think I'll go to the hospital.
I think the feeling that I want to do something for them is really precious. I understand that very well. It's difficult, right? Is it okay to talk about the situation? I'm very worried about whether or not I should be honest.
For the time being, I'm a boy, so I know in my head that souls are immortal, reincarnate, and turn into death. But it's scary. I'm lonely. That kind of declaration.
It's just me, but I don't want to listen to it. I think it would be nice if I could live my everyday life calmly, even if I don't get help from Kari. Speaking of why, everyday life is what life is about. I wonder if there is happiness there. I wonder if I'm going somewhere to be happy for a while. It would be nice to make memories, but if there's still a possibility, I think we should believe in that possibility, but why not? I don't understand your mother's temper, so I can't say anything about it, but it's normal, naturally, and it definitely makes me feel better. I think it's better to believe that it will heal and that you want it to be cured. Regardless of whether it's my last memory after confirming that I wouldn't be saved, I'm struggling to get treated normally if I'm still doing well. I don't want to die.
I wish your mother a recovery and all the best.

I'm also taking care of my mother who doesn't know her future. My father died of cancer. All I can say is what I can do now. Even if you overdo it, it will only be a burden.
It is visible that they weaken as the days go by, so does it mean that by doing what you can now, you won't leave regrets later?
I went to nearby riverbanks, temples, and shrines to show them cherry blossoms in full bloom that can only be found now. That might be my last memory. Let's take a picture.
Let's go eat what mom likes. Even if it's expensive. Of course, if they appreciate homemade food, use your skills.
I was hoping they would live a long time due to a misdiagnosis. If you make memories that aren't the case, I think you'll be able to attain Buddhism peacefully in times of emergency. And I think you can send it without regrets yourself.
I don't know your own purpose, but I would be grateful if your mother could put her hands together naturally and make nembutsu (treasure name, title, etc.) such as Namu Daishi Hensho Kongo, Namu Amida Buddha, Namu Myōhō Renge Sutra, Namu Shakyamuni Buddha, etc. I'm praying that they will put their hands together with the Buddha and spend as long as possible the happiness of living the days ahead.

The first step is to stop cancer activity. Since cancer grows using carbohydrates as nutrients, it is about changing to a carbohydrate-restricted diet. Completely eliminate high carbohydrates such as rice, wheat, margarine, fruits, red beans, pumpkin, carrots, etc., and consume low carbohydrates such as meat, fish, leafy vegetables, cheese, butter, and mayonnaise.
Calories are the amount of heat burned. What you eat doesn't burn in your body. Don't be fooled by calories that have nothing to do with health.
Authoritative medicine opposes this, but some doctors (Dr. Abe and Muneta are famous recently) recommend it.
Why are you against it? This is because if you become healthy, medicine won't be sold, and medical rewards won't come in.

The next thing I want to do is speak up. Also, as I heard, it seems that a scientist said that they obtained experimental results showing that the sound waves of the Namu Myōhō Renge Kyō are the healthiest.
How credible is that? However, speaking positive words aloud doesn't seem like a bad thing.

Hokke Kyō to Jorai Jiryōhin
You can worship the golden phrase “All Poisonous Diseases Are Healed (All Poisonous Diseases Are Cured).”
If you recite the Namu Myōhō Renge Kyō yourself, all of your toxic diseases will be healed.
It is said that humans become ill when they consume too much sugar. Too much sugar is truly toxic to our bodies.