Please help.

I recommend living a shameful way of life.
It's an image of running with all its might, stumbling, and running again while crying.
In other words, it means to work hard at everything.
Try doing it with your whole body and soul. Your soul will be shaken and you will rejoice.

It's easy to worry when you're young.
Youth is when you're fed up with the vulgarity of adults around you that seem to control your life and become empty, and the more you think about it, the more you go into the darkness of your thoughts.
People who think that youth is in full bloom don't experience the emptiness of their whole lives, have nothing to do with literature or philosophy, and only live a snob life.
There are such observations and questions, and I make an effort to unravel what my ancestors wrote, literature, philosophy, or religion. Indulge in reading.
In addition, sexual agony, such a period is puberty. There's something I want to reach out and grab, but I can't reach it. Dreams and hopes are born after falling to the bottom.
Politicians who have had a stupid youth that didn't live that kind of life are abolished because they don't need a college of letters at university.
Think very negatively and explore life.
If you live a life without much trouble, you won't be able to be a scum boy.
The foundation of Buddhism is what suffering is, and what can only be tackled by experiencing suffering is Buddhism.
Be sure to read novels every day.
Please deepen yourself by self-analyzing how negative you are.
think about a lot of things.

Shinran Shonin, the founder of the Jodo Shinshu sect
It wasn't worth the 20 years of training at Mt. Hiei,
I wasn't able to reach the state I expected,
“Hell is the definitive place for my unenlightened self.”
It was super negative.

However,
I was met by Honen Shonin, the founder of the Jodo sect
“Just do nembutsu and have Amitabha do it for you”
I began to live my life believing in that teaching.

Wild Roses, too
Such an encounter is sure to await.
Let's believe it and walk on.