My heart is heavy

I'm Mocha's person, and since I don't understand the situation at all, it may not be very accurate.

Why don't you try crying and screaming until your voice dies, blood comes out, and you don't make a voice?

There are times when it's hard and painful because we're alive.

There are always people who protect us.

It's fine, there's no stopping rain.

　It may not be an answer, but why not try wearing the Rokuharami “Meditation”? Let's do what is called zazen.
I think it's okay to be more specific and ask questions here. Little by little is fine, so try asking questions in a 5W1H style. There are times when heavy feelings are lightened just by exposing the inside of one's heart. Sometimes it gets even heavier. If you can get along again, please ask hasunoha a question.

Humans have something called balance.

Having a heavy heart can cause something to become heavy, but I don't think that's all.

In such a case, let's move our bodies first!!!

You can clean or do laundry, and it would also be effective to rearrange the furniture in the room!
If you don't like that kind of thing, running or walking is fine.
It's about moving your body until you feel tired.

If you get tired, sleep so that you fall back down right away.
Please have a good night's sleep.

I think my mind will feel a little lighter the next time I wake up.
Give it a try.

It's about spiritually becoming a monk from one's parents.
↑ More on that later.
Parents are beings that have a strong influence on oneself no matter how old they are.
The situation you are in now is in an environment where you “blame yourself” and “continue to undervalue yourself” when looking at your profile.
To be specific, isn't it a situation where you can't do anything while living with your parents at your parents' house, you become depressed by yourself because you don't meet your parents' expectations, you can't have yourself, or blame yourself?
When it comes to what it means to leave home from your parents, it means that you drop all of your demands on your parents.
Or, it's about completely surrendering to your parents (it's a strange expression, but the meaning is somehow fine, so please grasp it), and even if they say things that you've raised and watched over until now, and even if they are sometimes harshly scolded or denied, they also flush it down, forgive each other, acknowledge each other's imperfections, and finally give thanks to your parents.
Then, it's about knowing that parents have finite lives and adding acts of filial piety so that parents are pleased.
However, even though they are parents and children, each is biologically separate, so no matter what your parents do, it has nothing to do with you, and it doesn't affect your evaluation.
That's what I'm talking about ❝ leaving home from my parents ❞.
Your thankful feelings and energy of forgiveness naturally remove heavy gas from your heart.
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