I feel like my work is being dried

I read it.
It feels like you're being forced to work right now, and you're having a very hard time. In your head, you think you don't appreciate getting a job, but you're suffering because it has become an egocentric thought. I don't know the details of your situation, but I really understand how you feel.

Once humans begin to doubt this and that, they become suspicious. I don't know if you're really working right now, but why don't you take a break for now, and stop slowly for a moment. Also, try to calm your mind. It may be quite difficult to calm down, but for now, put aside all the scrutiny and doubt things and try to calm your mind slowly.

And first, let's slowly face what you're doing right now. What you are doing right now is probably very important to you, and I imagine that every day is worth living. Under such circumstances, I think you are fulfilling every day both mentally and physically.
First of all, please put yourself, your own life, and living a rich and fulfilling life first. When it comes to relationships and transactions with other people, I think it's fine to be second or third.

If you put your fulfilling work first, centering on what you want to be important to you, various matters will naturally follow, and if you do a good job, your relationships with your business partners will improve, and I think you will get carried away with it.
So please leave your doubts aside for now.

I sincerely pray that you will face your work every day to the fullest, and that you will do a good job and have a smooth transaction with everyone. And I support you from the bottom of my heart. Please don't be afraid, and never push yourself into doubt.

Conversely, is it a good idea to get a job if you contact them?
It probably doesn't mean it has been dried.

Speaking of temples, it's like showing memorial services or not. “There is a memorial service this year. It's like “if you tell them, they'll do a memorial service.”

Let's get in touch with Rock Paper Scissors and have a job.
If it doesn't work, you'll be turned down. Then I'll look for the next one again. It's a matter of moving indifferently without thinking about the other person's impression that it's difficult.

I think it's going to be hard.

However, since the company to which the order was placed is also working, I order from an illustrator who is highly skilled, fits the order well, and also responds comfortably to retakes.
I don't think there are any companies that can suit the illustrator situation.

It's not that it's being dried, and it's probably more correct to recognize that you haven't been able to draw the work you want to use when the company places an order.

There are a lot of people who want to get a job with illustrations.
Please improve your skills so that you can freely draw various illustrations so that you can make the company think that they want to use your illustrations in it.

Gassho