guilt

Hello, Aoiro.
You can see how they are suffering from a sense of guilt.
The first thing you have to think about is that there is no living person in this world who has never committed a crime.
In Buddhism, reflecting on past mistakes is called “repentance (repentance).”
Every day, we monks reflect on the mistakes we unknowingly make while reading the sutras.
If you have a Buddhist answer, why don't you read the sutras?
“Heart Sutra” etc. are recommended at an appropriate length.
Try it out first.

Nice to meet you! My name is Seishun from the Otani school of Shinshu.

First of all, I would like to say that people make mistakes, so they probably get lost and suffer.
And as we grow, we become better as people.

You can't get rid of the mistakes you've made in the past, but you can choose what's going to happen now. It's important that Aoiro has now realized that mistake.

What I recommend is to hope for the happiness of others and act because small things are fine.

I think you should start by showing a smile, wishing for the other person's happiness, making an effort to understand the other person's feelings, fundraising for someone, and speaking kindly.

Everyone is weak when they think about themselves, but they are stronger for others.

Once you start focusing your attention on others, you should stop worrying about other people's eyes, and now you're probably focusing too much on yourself.

If you try to give something to others, you will naturally be able to forgive yourself, and above all else, people around you will be happy. If we start being aware of it now, we will eventually make more people happier than those who have been hurt in the past.

Why don't you live to spread happiness instead of living to regret it ^ ^

I will completely repent. And don't let that drag on any longer.
What you should apologize for is apologize. If there is an opportunity to say, “I really deeply regret the fact that we have treated you so harshly until now,” you should tell them. It is an age where a way of life descends from a high place is required, but in the first place, if humans don't have a strong separation between superiority and inferiority, they will develop natural flexibility, like people who can play with any small child or animal.
It's about stopping relying on pride and living on earth. (^<^)
Arrogance and arrogance are meant to make yourself look strong.
In other words, there is an underlying feeling of comparison where you try to gain an advantage over others.
You had to do that. From their standpoint, they tried to fulfill the responsibilities of the entire team by showing their might.
It seems that one of my favorite Osho people treated ascetic monks with a strict side when he was in a position to teach ascetic monks during the Unsui ascetic period. It seems that he was converted after receiving an indication from someone that “what you said was correct, but the way you did it was wrong.”
There is a teaching that we must not hurt people with justice.
Take this opportunity to treat others with humility and with a sense of respect and cheerfulness.
I think you should just bluntly do what you need to do without trying to stand out.
The human eye is a function of one's mind that cares about people's eyes and their evaluations.
Please wake up to the fact that it's not about the other person's evaluation, but that you're just drawing a dark image because you're concerned about people's eyes.
If you change, your opponents will change.
If you are calm, then your partner will be calm too.
If you become radical, your opponent will respond to it too.
Everyone can be a fountain. Let's work hard so that you become the source of a good atmosphere, have a strong sense of independence as before, and create good harmony.

Aoiro-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Even if you have committed a crime or mistake, “remorse” and “repent” are the first things in Buddhism.

Until now, “shame” has been dealt with in the following questions.

http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_321867.html

Question “repentance”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/1004016464.html

“... Since you are “ashamed,” furthermore, it is important not to make the same mistake again, to express your thoughts of remorse and apology if there is an opportunity to meet your partner, and to make amends if there is anything you can do. ・・”

If you find it difficult to apologize or make amends any longer, I recommend that you never make the same mistake again and strive for good deeds and merit. Also, in my humble answer to the question below, I am dealing with the sutra called “repentance.”

The question “is it OK to be happy?”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/1008050052.html

“All the evil deeds I created in the past were born from nothing, greed, subservient words (oral) intentions, everything I repent now”

“... I have built up various bad deeds (a collection of bad deeds) from a long time ago, all of which are caused by body, language (mouth), and intention (actions due to each of the body, words, and mind) due to greed, anger, and anger (heart of greed, heart of intense anger, foolish heart that does not know the truth) since immortality (past without beginning). Right now, I'm repenting of all of those bad deeds. ・・”

As you can see in your question, in order to continue dealing with guilt and surely exterminating sins, I think it will be important to sincerely recite the “confessions” described above every once in a while, and to counter and eliminate criminal acts and misdeeds that have been piled up or are piling up, it will be even more important to strive for good deeds, acts of mercy, and altruism.

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho